My Mistake.......

Hmm...... will the time ever come that I meet a desent man? You know, the silent but strong type, the type that makes you love him without saying a word, the type that says he loves you and truely means it, and is not looking for anything? Hmm.... I'm rambling now arnt I. Well maybe if I tell you the whole story youll see what I'm talking about.1

I met him in JROTC camp ( its an army camp for highschoolers) he was tall and very, very hansome, I thought I was the luckiest girl in that camp, because, well I was the envy of all the girls. Every girl in that camp wanted him and he chose me!2

We started dating and kind of grew on eachother, everybody (including him) said that he was a better person when he was with me, but as the year progressed somthing changed in him, I didn't know what and I couldn't stop it. All I could do was watch. And I did, and what I saw was that he changed from the gentle kind guy I knew into somthing horrible soon people started to tell me stuff he was doing and when I confrunted him about it, he slammed me up agianst the wall, put his face to mine and said I'm not doing those things, they're all lieing to you, and I thought I don't have any choice, I have to believe him and drop it.So I did, but his distructive attitude continued until the point where he cheated on me with my best friend.3

I had just had the worst week ever and to find out that the one guy I thought loved me didn't. Well that was almost more than I could bear, so he chose her over me and we got in a fight, (verbal mind you) soon after I left for California and have been told that his self destruction path has grown. He now drinks, smokes, and his new girlfriend hates him just as much as I do now, I suppose I should forgive him and let it go but somhow I can't bring myself to do it. 4

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I thought I would just share that with all of you. I'm alot better off without him, and I am determined not to make that same mistake agian Good bye,6

Amanda
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