Zoey.

Chapter 11


Damian and I were laying on the bed in the aftershock of the orgasm itself. The sex had been great, but the orgasm was so strong we couldn’t get up yet, I was laying there thinking of the feel of him pushing his shaft into my body so hard I screamed out loud. Laying there moaning underneath him I moved my hips to help him inside, I was still tight but wet, my body was making room for him but it wasn’t gentle anymore it was hard and aggressive. Moving more and more inside me he finally fit without shoving with all his strength. He moved in and out smoothly rubbing that small spot inside me that makes me want to go nuts. I scratched my nails down his back while he brought me closer and closer to ecstasy scratching myself up when I realized I was probably hurting him. When we finally got done his back was covered in nail marks mostly my fault and my arms were bloody. He looked down at me and smiled then licked my blood off of me and said with a grin “If this was for my benefit thank you but if it was so you wouldn’t hurt m it was pointless. I don’t mind a little pain.” It was my turn to grin at him I said “me neither.” I moved my hips a little and he got the hint and rolled off of me graciously. He always moved that way, like a lazy cat.
We sat there and grinned at each other for a few minutes. He started to get up and put on his clothes that were gone in the first round of hands. “What are you doing baby?” I asked to him confused at his sudden interest in getting dressed and no looking at me. He turned and looked at me finally and said “That was amazing but…” he just stopped like he didn’t want or know what to say next. I said it for him “but it’s over huh?” He sighed and walked to sit next to me on the bed, I pulled up the sheet to cover myself I so didn’t want to be naked when he broke up with me. “I don’t want to be with you anymore. I’m not in love with you I never was you were all just a joke at first then I started feeling sorry for you and I couldn’t break your heart like that so I stayed with you for two years but I cant do it anymore ok I’m sorry Zoë but its over. Please don’t hate me.” I started to cry and hated it. I hated crying it made people vulnerable I screamed “GET OUT NOW GO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM AND NEVER COEM BACK!!!” He got up and left quickly when I heard the front door shut I let go, I bawled until I had no tears left. How could he not love me? How could he just date me almost ask me to marry him more than one I think and not love me? How could you be so cold hearted?
I stayed in bed for weeks didn’t get up for hours in the day didn’t eat, didn’t drink unless they made me. I skipped school, when they made me get up and go I hid until they went to work and then id climb into bed and sleep all day long with loud music playing and my door locked. I didn’t open my door at all for anyone. When my friends came over to see what had happened I couldn’t talk about it I couldn’t live through it again I couldn’t see it again. They left after hugging me and kissing my cheeks. I felt nasty and used and dirty like I had just played in the rain and fell down in a puddle. I got up and went and sat in the tub with the shower beating down on my body as hot as I could get it. I told myself “Zoë don’t let this bug you he was a jerk.” “But you loved him so much and he broke your heart.” I told that part to shut up and shoved this deep inside myself. Where it was to stay and hide.2

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Chapter 24


It was three days after I made myself forget what happened on that day. I was going back to school today for the first time in weeks and I was numb, I didn’t feel anything yet. I was still looking into my mirror putting on eye liner when someone walked in I whipped around to look at who came in. I was shocked when I saw my best friend standing my door way thanking my mom for letting her in. She wasn’t supposed to be here yet she was driving us to school. “What’s up Candice? Why are you here so early is something wrong?” I said. “No I just wanted to drop by and see if you wanted to leave early and get some breakfast from sonic. So do you?” “Sure I do you know I love a free breakfast he he just kidding I got some cash I can spend right now let me finish my liner and we can get ahead and leave.” I finished my liner and got up to get my stuff but the look on her face stopped me. I looked at her funny and asked “What are you doing staring at me like I’ve sprouted a third head?” She just shook her head and started walking to her car “Nothing it’s just weird that you’re all happy right now you’ve never been a morning person.” I laughed and said “he he right I know but I’m energetic right now I have no clue why.”
We walked outside my house and I saw her car it was a different color than I remembered I turned to her and saw the smile before I saw her car out by the curb. There was a bow on the maroon car in the drive way. “OMG who’s car is that one?” I pointed to get my point across. She giggled and threw the keys at me and said “take one guess, its yours your mom bought it for your 16th birthday.” I screamed and giggle and hopped up and down for a while. I was so excited about my new car. I love it its a little Toyota, its maroon and it’s so pretty. I got in and drove to sonic to show it off. Every one of my friends was up there. They all saw it and giggle with me about it. I finally got to school in my new car!! We had a great time there I wasn’t even thinking about Damian until my friends started talking about him and asking if we were still together I got up and left when they wouldn’t stop questioning me.
I went inside numb but a little thawed out from the car. Then I saw him and it all hit me again so hard I stumbled backwards. I saw him in the cafeteria where all my friends were they waved me over to them but I didn’t really see them all I saw was him. I walked past them and ran to the bathroom and threw up all my sonic food. Just the site of him disquieted me I wanted to run home and cry. I went threw class numbly and I felt like I was numb all over like he just stuck me into a freezer and just left me there. He walked up to me after seconded period and tried to talk to me but I kept walking on like I didn’t even see him but I did. I saw him, what he was wearing, what shoes he was wearing what color his eyes were. I even smelled him, the cologne he was wearing the scent of his deodorant. His jell in his hair, his shampoo and conditioner. I wanted to hurt him like he hurt me I wanted to cut him as deep as the would on my back and thighs. I wanted to feel his heart break into little pieces. My friends watched me shove him off of me and flinch when he grabbed my hand and twisted me to face him. The look on his face made me want to cry. It was like he felt sorry for me still and half of it was lust nothing but dirty filthy lust. Like he wanted to fuck me, not make love or have sex but FUCK. I twisted out of his grip and ran through the halls until I was grabbed from behind. I thought it was him but when I turned and slapped the principal I realized it wasn’t. I fell back form him and almost fell on the ground but two strong arms caught me around the waist. I looked up into a face I’ve never seen before that was very handsome. He righted me on my feet and put a hand out to me and said “Hi I’m new here I’m Lucifer McCoy. Are you alright?” I just stood there looking at him. He was so different looking. I liked him on the spot. I shook his hand and said “Hi I’m Zoey, I’m ok. Lucifer like the devil? OMG I’m so sorry I didn’t mean it that way but it’s a unique name can I call you Luci?” He laughed at my uncomfortable ness and shook his head up and down and said “Sure you can but only you can call me luci. Can I call you Zoë?” “Sure thing everyone calls me zozo but you can call me Zoë.”
We were still staring at each other when the principal tapped me on the shoulder. He said “Young lady you just slapped me in front of half the school. What do you think I should do about that? Young man you need to go back into my office and wait for me were both be in there in a second.” I was shocked that I had really slapped him I stammered “Mr. Douglas I’m so sorry I though you were Damian I didn’t think it was you I thought I was him. I’m so sorry please don’t suspend me or anything it was an accident. I promise it won’t happen again.” He looked at me like he didn’t believe me but he said “ok then go on and go to class I hope you ok Zoey.”
I was walking back to class when I saw him again. Lucifer was looking into my eyes again and with that deep knowledge that Damian’s had but his was clean and sweet. He was just there like he appeared out of nowhere I was just suddenly gazing into his dark brown eyes that seemed to burn me into one spot. I couldn’t move, couldn’t speak, and couldn’t think of anything but him. He smiled and said “Hello Zo, so how are you now? I hope your ok now; would you like to tell me what was wrong earlier and why you slapped Mr. Douglas?” I was suddenly embarrassed that some stranger had witnessed that outcast appearance I made, what a first impression he must have made of me. Not that I care, a part of me said, but you do care and you know it another part taunted me. I shushed myself and said to him “Oh I’m fine now I just had just fan into an ex-boyfriend of mine that hurt me really bad and all. I just got freaked out. I’m sorry that you had to see me like that.” I realized that he was the first person I told about what happened between us. He was looking at me with sorrow in his eyes and said “I hope you don’t take this the wrong way, but I can’t believe anyone would willingly hurt a beautiful girl such as yourself. I know I would never hurt you if you even gave me the right to I hope this guy is regretting it deeply.” I felt that he meant every word and the he wanted the chance to love me I was so touched by what he said about me that I just threw my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek. I hugged him and soon his arms were around me hugging me back. I stepped back kind an embarrassed that I just hugged some guy I just met in the hall way. By now that halls were clear and we were alone. I cleared my throat and said “what class do you have now?” He looked at his schedule then handed it to me. I looked at it. He had the same classes I had the same classes I had for the whole day. I looked at him and smiled then sighed and said “Ok you have all my classes all day long how did you pull that off?” He laughed and said in his smooth voice “I have no clue what you’re talking about.”
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