[ you've made me enjoy time, ]

you've made me enjoy time,
now,
while it's here,
instead of only being able to enjoy the sweet memories,
when time has past ,
gone and lost forever.
you've made me wish,
that i could just stop time,
so that i can enjoy it,
instead of dreading the fact,
that it will soon pass.
for when the time has past, i'll only have memories left to serve me.
you've made me love,
somthing i used to hate,
just because your there.
your always on my mind,
your all i can think about.
it's because of you,
that i've learned,
something i should have,
years ago.
but more importantly,
you've made me learn to accept it.
i find myself trying to do things the way you do.
i don't know how it is possible for anyone tho be so perfect,
such as you are.
my heart jumps for joy,
everytime i see you,
and i can only hope that you'll never notice,
because i can't stop it.
your my dreams come true,
standing right in front of me,
but no matter what i do,
i'll never mean anything to you.
when i don't see you,
i feel as if there was no reason,
for me to have bothered to get up at all,
that morning.
you are that special person,
the one that only few people can find,
i found you,
but i can't be with you.
It took me almost an eternity,
to find out how i felt about you.
and an eternity more to admit it to myself.
never will i admit it to you,
or anybody else.
i've never written down,
nor said aloud,
how i feel about you.
i fear that you might find out.
i wonder if you've ever noticed me,
following you.
i wonder if you've ever thought twice about it,
when you look up,
and i'm staring at you.
have you ever noticed,
my eyes light up,
and twinkle brighter than the brightest star,
just because i caught a glimpse of you?
or,
are you completely oblivious,
to me,
and my feelings for you?
unfortunently,
that's the way it is,
and the way it will stay.
not you,
not anyone,
will ever know the way my heart beats for you.
even if they did,
they wouldn't understand.
and i will see you tomarrow,
just as i always do,
and i'll hide behind a mask,
i'll never let anyone see through.
and when you cross my path,
i'll want to scream and giggle with joy,
just as a little school girl would.
yet i'll keep my exeitment bottled up inside of me,
and not be able to help,
but flash a smile.
yet that smile,
with all the happiness,
as if i've just received all the riches in the world,
will likly end as a frown,
and often times a tear will be shed.
for i know i have little time left,
to enjoy being with you.
and i'll always remember to enjoy that time,
if only for you.
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