apology!!

domnica wasnt with me as muh as before...maybe love is one big box of substance..limited....if u love one u give the wholle of it to that person...if u love two...u divide it......1

it was the mall i believe when she met this....he was cute...really cute..i was the one who first poited him out to her...i must say...i dont think i had a greater crush on any other guy...but domnica was the bolder of us two...
and as they say, faster, braver, get guys graver.
some shit some1 told me..2

well...she first began to date..mot casually...i didnt think of it much..until..until..i saw them at the coffee shop..holding hands...lips glued together...i wasnt jealous....i really wasnt jealous....i was worried....3

she always returned to me with tales of him...how he talked, looked, walked and...kissed....still i wasnt worried until...that day...4

i was walked to domni's house to do the rest of the homework...i rang the bell, but no1 came...but i knew that domni was at home becos her bedroom was open, and i saw shadows in there....i prompted unlocked the door with the spare key and proceeded in...as i walked down the corridor which held domni's room, i thought i heard sound...not the usual one.....with curiosity thumping my heart, igently pushed the door open an inh and peeped...oh goddamn shit...
domni was in there ...nothing wrong about that..except that she had nothing on except her inner garments...and the only-underweared body of fred drapped over her....
i dont know why, but i just couldnt move myself from there.....i yelped...and i am fraid that domni heard it..she looked up and gasped in suprise....fred jumped and sheathed himself with a blanket...i was panic stricken....in a small voice domni cried out.." pls sheila..wait in the hall, will you.."....i could do naught but obey..i silently went and sat on the sofa in the lobby...
fred walked out of the bedroom with a cool look about his face which i now bitterly disliked....he walked into the kitchen..."the kitchen's got a backdoor, remember "...domni who followed explained.....i felt anger..not for domnica..but for fred....a sly fox he was...thinking it would be fun to coax a tender lady like domni for his dirty business...
i and domni talked through our eyes..asking for forgiveness and forgiveness,....and then suddenly fred came back...a shock to me....he sat down and gave each of us a cup of coffee...
i felt that he has lost his marbles somewhere...
....then he knelt on his knees....facing both of us..."forgive me...sheila and domic...both of u...i apologize heavily for my conduct.....it wasnt my inntntion to cause domni any harm, mental or physcal...i ask u sheila to speak of this incident...to none..at least not with refernce to domni..but with erefernce to me..i shall say nothing...for wrong i have done......i wish not to leave with shame...i do not wih to end all with bitterness that shall trouble both our eyes....yet end we must...for if a mistake can occur once....again it may occur...i beg your leave to do dear domnica...i fear i do break your heart...yet i feel it is the best....i ask for friendship...i ask for a new beginning.....make me a safeguarder...i may not stand as the usual peer...but things can start again, can't they....
..and also...i must confess today...i do know of ur relation with sheila..."5

what really hit me where his last words...bloody hell...we had worked so much...so much since we both had moved to this new locality.... i just couldnt imagine how he knew....we had suffered too much humiliation before, dispite the fact that we had managed to convince quite a few that we weren't abnormal...yet life hadnt been easy/...on domnica's request i kept mum about our relation...
i dont' think i've ever met a guy like fred...so gentleman-like...he was a bit weird..u know like those medieval kights who believed in chivalry....yet i couldnt ignore his politeness...the way he handled the business without causing disgrace to domnica...
we did manage to forgive him....he was just a friend...and as we began to know him better he wasnt that prince-like charmer...he was more like a blissful puppy..full of joy....
and now he acted in our lebian business,...elping us get away from the usual crowd so that i and domni could spend a few minute alone...