The strange thing is how you are so certain that you would be glad to die even the most painful of deaths in exchange for a lasting peace, and yet the thought of bringing it upon yourself is still what makes your palms sweat up.1
What you need is for someone else to do you a favour and pull the trigger because you, for whatever reason, are somehow too squeamish to ever do so for yourself.2
They could stick your head in a guillotine, slip your neck in a noose, hack you to bits, immolate you, bury you alive, bathe you in acid… Hell, they could disembowel you and strangle you with your own intestines for all you care, as long as it promised to forever leave your mind echoing with its own emptiness. Even the most agonisingly torturous demise seems preferable to the long, dull method of death they call life.3
Because no matter how horrific or drawn-out the means, it seems like a miniscule price to pay for an eternity of merciful nothing - if anything, it would be a real steal, a bargain you’d find at Costco, the kind that people line up for in front of stores an hour before they open.4
In the grand scheme of things, you’d prefer any procedure of dying other than the most obvious, which is, of course, living. Struggling your way through it until you reached the end of your rope and then nature just robs everything from you anyway, leaving you empty-handed, regretful, bitter and impotent.5
Maybe this whole thing about life was just some hugely elaborate conspiracy meant to make people believe it was actually worth sticking around for.6
Well, they’re not fooling you anymore. You’re really on to them now. Now you know that this whole thing has been just one big dupe. You’re a poor and disillusioned immigrant who’d worked half his life to get into America, only to realise that the real American dream consists of little more than a run-down apartment in some ethnic slum, a nocturnal-hour job as a sports coliseum janitor with no healthcare coverage.7
5 spare Xacto blades: $2.258
Bottle of 30 T4 tablets: $35.799
Plastic bag: $0.0510
Never having to wake up again: priceless.11
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Wow, This was amazingly thought out, Kinda creepy too. Dont know why, I have thought about it a few times, death anyway... even tried it a few times... But I guess for some unknown reason 92 Valium just didnt want to work its magic.... But its for the better
Wonderful write!
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I agree with the comment below me although that comment is fairly old. I love the ending part though. Keep up the good work and until next time,
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Hm...odd piece but very well thought out and written.
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Enlightening concept.
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O.o
How odd! I have to agree with Pyrra, though. It would be boring. To just end it all? Wow...and then nothing? *Shakes head* I can see the point you're trying to make about how disillusioning America can be, but why in this light? *Shrugs* Iunno...I guess I'd find it much more interesting if all the disillusioned immigrants ganged up on fast food chains and poisoned Americans.
Hey, it could happen! Anyway, great write, but what a downer!
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 4, overall: 8, ending: 4, dialog: 5, characters: 5.
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To me theres is no more disgusting thought than "promised to forever leave your mind echoing with its own emptiness." How... genuinely boring. Of course, I don't crave that "exchange for a lasting peace." Peace is for losers. Chaos all the way.
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