From Want to Love to Need

After wandering the streets for hours, she finally found the house she was looking for. She casually walked through the backyard and stood facing the sliding doors. She looked up at Orion and silently prayed that this wouldn't be the night they had locked the door. She lightly tugged on it. It slid open silently. Taking a deep breath, she stepped into the unfamiliar kitchen. She knew not where she had to go from her current position, but she still moved on, making her way quickly. But oh so silently through the house. 1

She soon came upon a narrow hallway, with four doors going down it. Two on each side. The near perfect darkness sent a chill down her spine. Upon reaching the first door, she slid it open, and to her surprise it made a loud creaking noise. A familiar smell came upon her, but that smell also signified that she was in the wrong place. She took a few steps forward, reaching the next door. It, unlike the last one, did not creak, and from the crack of the slightly opened door came a light. After being in the dark for so long, the light almost blinded her.2

Fully opening it, she saw that she had reached the right place. She stepped into the room and looked around, intrigued and impressed by everything. She stood in front of the turtle's cage. It opened one eye and looked her once-over before falling back asleep in its own little world. She then turned her attention to the bed, and the peaceful being sleeping in it. She sat on the edge of it next to him, and caressed his cheek. He woke up to the feeling of her hand, softly running up and down the side of his face. The enjoyment he felt from this was indescribable.3

At first, he had no idea who she was, as the small amount of light made her look like a silhouette of her real self. Soon though, he was able to tell it was her, the love of his life. Her meir pr essence assured him that everything was perfectly fine. He sat up, but she gently pushed him back down, not wishing for him to get up. He tried to speak, but she placed her hand over his mouth. He understood quickly that if he spoke, the others in the house would wake up, and she did not wish for that to happen. She wasn't supposed to be there to begin with. He tried once more to get out of his bed, and she did not stop him. 4

Quietly and softly, he walked over to a shelf and picked up a movie. He popped the movie into the VCR and quickly set it up. While it was starting he went back over to his bed and sat down, and to his surprise she sat down to, right upon his lap. His surprise soon turned to happiness, and he wrapped his arms around her. 5

He had his back up against the headboard, and she leaned her head back, resting on his shoulder, until it touched the wood. She sighed and laced her fingers between his as she closed her eyes. She felt completely relaxed, for when she was with him, she was truly happy. 6

She had little interest in the movie. She turned her head and kissed him softly on the cheek. Surprised once more, the boy seemed a bit shocked, and did not respond at all for what seemed like a long time, actually being meir minutes. She seemed saddened by this, as though he didn't love her in the same way. Her head drooped, and she felt ashamed as if she did something wrong. Then, to add to her sadness he pushed her to the side, off of his lap. 7

Her eyes filled with tears. They started to run slowly down her soft cheeks. She felt rejected and betrayed, by him and by her own feelings. She soon felt his hand on her cheek, wiping her tears away, as he turned her head to face him. He leaned forward and placed his lips on hers. Her eyes fluttered as he did this, causing tears to slide further down her face. They left a wet trail from her eyes to her mouth, and his. 8

She jerked her head away as the last tear touched her mouth, only seconds after the first. She shook her head and wiped the rest of the tears away, before looking at him again. She was so confused. But, he was looking at her so sweetly. She took his hand, and wrapped his arm around her waist as she cuddled up next to him, again resting her head on his shoulder. He, in turn, rested his head on hers. 9

He moved his hand up slowly, lightly brushing across her breast as his hand moved toward her head. She felt it, and tensed up slightly... yet she didn’t seem to mind. He could feel as her body tensed, in response, he ran his fingers through her hair, relaxing her. She purred softly in his ear, glad that she had ran a brush through her hair a few extra times earlier before she came. The attention to her hair gave her goose bumps and she pressed herself closer to him. She loved it so much. 10

He moved his hand down a little and began to rub her back. This drew her even closer to him, and they made eye-contact which she quickly broke. She looked back at him, and kissed him. This kiss had more feeling than the first. The feelings of happiness, purity, and especially love ran through her kiss. More want. Want that soon turned to need. 11

She needed him now, he had become her life force, her whole reason for being alive. More needed than food, more vital than air. She was afraid though. Afraid that he would not need her, as she needed him. Her fear soon vanished, as he well received the passionate kiss, and returned it in kind. Yet, soon he broke off, and broke his gaze as well. He knew it would ruin her if it got too deep, that there would always be someone better for her. He wanted the best for her, and did not want to get in the way of the true happiness he would not be able to bring her. He loved her enough to give her up to another.12

He got up, and started walking towards the door, only to be stopped by her clinging on to him. Neither of them said a word. She had her hands on his arm. One of them slid down the inside of it and landed in his hand. She looked into his eyes, feigning sadness. He understood what she meant. He finally began to realize he could give her what she wanted, at least for now. He could give her the happiness she wished for. He lead her gently back to the bed. They both sat in the middle of it. He looked around nervously. Then calmly, he put his hand behind her head and kissed her. She kissed him back, deeply. Her eyes shut as she leaned into him. He put his other arm around her waist. She loved it there; it made her feel safe. She was finally back to being totally at ease, as she draped her arms around his neck. For tonight, for now, and possibly forever, he would grant her wish to be with him......13