People

I care about people. People im related to. People I have been friends with for years and people I have just met. I talk to them whenever they need somebody to talk to and listen to them when they need somebody just to listen. I am always there when they need me, if they text me I would text my last text. If they phone me, I would make time to talk to them even if I am snowed under with urgent things to do. If somebody needed a friend at 3 in the morning I would be there every second. I wouldn't sleep. I don't sleep. People mean so much to me and I hate them being upset. Nobody deserves to be upset or judged. Everybody seems to judge everybody, the prejudice is shocking. Also, if one of your friends had an argument with their partner and you heard their side of the story, would you HONESTLY go to the other person to find out if they are OK, or at least to find out their side before you start bitching behind their backs and call them names? I try so hard to find out the whole story because it is only fair and usually the other person is just upset as your friend. When people are around im usually happy. Unfortunately, when im on my own, im on my own… but when im around people im usually on my own as well. Most of the people I am there for only see me as there for them. I am under no circumstances saying this about everybody. I have a few close friends who I know are there for me whenever I need them. The problem is that I don't like talking about my problems at all. When I am upset about something, I ask other people if they are OK and try and sort out all of their small sufferings. It makes me feel better when they feel better because of me. I never give up on people. I watch films and there is always somebody who has something serious on their minds, and there is one person who is always with them, always helping subconsciously. The person is soooo close to letting the other person in but then they get fed up and leave at the crucial moment. I NEVER WANT TO BE THAT PERSON. But for a person who is surrounded by people i seem to be pretty lonely myself.