Can I do this Anymore?

Am i worthy?1

Can i give into your so called "innocence"?2

Can i come into your world, 3

love you more than any other girl?4

Is it impossible for me to find you...5

Even though your non-existence?6

And i laugh as i remember casually running into you7

on the city streets.8

I can't seem to find the world anymore.9

I can't seem to cry the tears.10

Can't seem to live life the way it should be lived.11

Just can't live this life without you now.12

I feel more heartbroken each day13

cause I can't seem to find the beauty within me,14

you said you saw that day..15

oh, I cant look away.16

Blinded by the only one who can control me.17

And when, you told me there was no one like me...18

were you kidding yourself or were you right?19

And when, we played together foolishly by the moonlight20

were you even once petrified at the fact of loosing each other?21

I keep telling myself I can't ever love you,22

let alone go and try... to be someone other than myself...23

please, I think I'd rather die24

maybe I'm just foolish, trying to act like I'm right25

maybe I'm too screwed up to notice that you were nothing but26

a little crazy boy throughout this fight.27

fuck... i think I'm just a screwed up loser28

trying to find something i can search for but will never find.29

I've wasted so much time, trying to pull this off30

but now i realize without you, I'm well off, I'm fine.31

I cant go on anymore, in this controlling little world32

I cant fall asleep one night without crying a tear33

wished i was still a little optimistic girl34

hanging on to my teddy bear, letting go of the fear.35

It just so happens that i can love you...36

I can love everything you do.37

But I can't love you.38

I can't be with you.39

I can't go on without you...40