Another Waitress

I was sitting in a small, square room. It had purple walls and on the walls were pictures of stars that had worked with this agency before. Famous faces of movie stars and stage actors. Maybe someday my picture will hang up there . 1

I grew up in a small town in Kansas. My father was always nice and hard working. Providing everything that I could possible want nice clothes, toys and extra things that made a huge difference in my life. My father wasn't a liar, he just didn't want me to worry. My baby sister was just 10 when she got sick and died. My mother out of grief left our house, my dad and I.2

Financially I was stuck, no where to go. I won a scholarship to a college in Colorado but unfortunately it didn't cover everything so I had to turn it down. Every dream I had was crushed. High school threw me out into the world and I was left with nowhere to go. All my dreams had been shattered.3

When my dad came home one day with a handful of money he thrust at me. He told me to go as far away as I possible could. To make something of myself. To pursue my acting talents. I hugged him so tightly when I was getting on to the bus for California. He smiled and waved, though it was good to get out I couldn't help but feel totally alone. 4

And now here I was breathing deeply almost choking on air. This would have been my fifteenth interview yet. Frankly nobody was interested in 19 year old actress from Kansas. I was thrown into the giant group of desperate waitresses who were trying to pay the bills and get one lousy break out of this cruel world. 5

' I have other pieces memorized if you would like?' I pleaded with the three men sitting in the back of the room.6

' Listen kid, you don't got what it takes to be in show business.' One of the men said.7

' That's not true I have plenty experience, and could carry off this role. You just got to trust me!' I snarled back at him.8

'...No.' Was all he said before I stormed out.9

On the street I was walking to my second job. Crying hard. I was alone, my father was far away and not a single friend was there to comfort me. So many people in the world yet I felt so alone. All of my dreams crushed. I will never have a job as an actress, I will never have a normal family, I will never be able to stop crying. I have no idea what will happen to me. There is no escaping the dark tunnel that lies ahead of me. 10