What you don't know:Five

wasted1

five fifteen
says the clock
on the microwave
when I stumble through
the kitchen door2

drunk3

high4

and I have
to pee.5

creep up the
stairs as stealthily
as I can
trying not to giggle.6

stripping off clothes
naked
crawling under the sheets
sleep the sh-t off.7

***8

hangover9

head pounding like
a drum
stomach rumbles
dizziness
sun stings my eyes.
fling back the covers
rush to the bathroom10

kneeling over the
toilet bowl
last nights
fun spewing out.11

i take a cold shower.12

***13

breakfast14

mom made chocolate
pancakes.
for Stephen and Markus.15

I hate chocolate
pancakes.16

fix a bowl of cereal instead.
Saturdays are boring here.17

Mouse works.18

can't hang with him.19

I'm too lazy right now
to explore town.20

telephone rings
knock on the back door.21

mom glances at me22

I shrug
go back to my cereal23

sighing24

she chooses the door.25

'Morning Ms. Marlow.'26

I drop the spoon.
turn27

there she is.
standing there, smiling
at me.28

waving.29

'Hey West.'30

mom let's her in.31

breakfast turns
into mush. feels like
I might toss it up.32

all I can think is33

god.34

she.35

is.36

so.37

beautiful.38

she pats my hand.39

now I'm putty hanging off the seat.40

she sees the plate
of pancakes on the table
scrunches her face.41

'I hate chocolate pancakes.'42

she hates-43

she hates...44

I love this girl even more.45

***46

Markus ruins the moment47

walks in.48

punches me.49

hugs mom.50

winks at Bjou.51

scoots himself next to her.
arm around her neck.52

'Morning Beautiful.'53

'Hello Markus.'54

she giggles
smiles
blushes
words whispered into
her ear.55

I glare56

angry57

green with envy.58

***59