A passage of hope

This is a personal message to anybody who thinks life sucks, or is bad in any way, shape or form. To anybody who’s broken from heartbreak, to anybody who dares to know what makes me keep going after all I’ve been through.1

Commissar:  2

Haha, from this day forwards you shall be known as the Prophet of Hope.3

My friend Commissar told me that after I said what I’m writing. I hope you enjoy it.4

Today, I’ve had a bad day. Particularly, a pretty bad one. Family, friends, ex girlfriends and the works. A beloved friend of mine and I had an argument, but we’re talking happily again. I know tomorrow or later tonight, I’ll wake up happy and ready to take on the next day. My views won’t change, but my attitude will. That is something I am grateful for.5

Why am I always like this?6

I have a thought, a dream and a huge amount of hope. I know that everything that’s happened, happening and going to happen is worth it. The good, bad, ugly and shear pain to even think about is worth it. Anybody who disagrees can begin his or her testimony after mine, and I’d like to see you say that life’s a bitch after it.7

Let me start with love. Love is a beautiful thing. It’s something that can bring you from the brink of the abyss into shear, monumental bliss. Its raw energy is enough to keep me going, and my love for life and everyone in mine is something I shall always cherish. Somebody is out there for me, somebody that I will love without boundaries, and they shall love me back. Some people think it won’t come for them, and I say it will. Wait, and you’ll see. Everything will be fine in the end.8

Love transcends all boundaries of race, religion, belief and gender. You can love a male as much as a female, but it’s my personal choice to stick with the opposite gender. Unless I am to love a male more than a female, my views are yet to change. Love is love, and gender isn’t an issue for me. The soul of that vessel is what is important to me.9

The person I’m bound to be with is waiting for me. I might know he or she right now, I might not. I’ll spend my final day with this person, I am assured of this. I will have a family with he or she, and we’ll be happy together. I’ll never let him or her down, even at my last breath.10

I will live my life the way I want. No work, pain, suffering or people who have or will cause it. It will be my own euphoria, whatever it will be. The ones I hold dearest to me and those who love me back shall surround me. This vision of my future is what drives me. It gives me a fire on my eyes to keep me going, to push me through the hard times.11

What else could I think about that would make me this hopeful?12

Pain is only temporary. Much like the taste of food or human life, it will end eventually. That will be the time when I am in my blissful reward. It will be my reward, my personal gain and will be shared with the people who will be with me. All the bad events in my life will be just fading memories that I will thank for getting me here. Suffering may only exist for a short while, but my memories, soul and words shall not be forgotten. Somebody, I won’t be forgotten. My legacy shall carry on, you will see.13

I won’t work, obviously. I don’t work now, but I know that I have a while ahead of me before it’s over. I will work, and it may not be good. It may not be comfortable, or my dream job. It will get me through life though, and I will love it at the end.14

I have learned so much from life. I have been a theologist and philosopher most of my rational life, and I am eternally grateful. I have gained knowledge that others may learn and nourish from me, and I have learned to look at life differently from most others. I may have a dim perspective on life sometimes, but my thoughts always return to being plain and simple: Hope for my reward.15

Obviously, you are wondering why I say life doesn’t suck. I love life with a passion. The truth is, it’s the only reason I’m alive. I love to think, to move, to type, swim, drink, eat and even breathe. Everything is a joy to me, because I know it’s a sensation that I will experience once, twice and time again, still loving every moment of my life.16

I won’t die in pain, sorrow or malice. I will be where I want to be. I won’t die by some random car accident, or by some incident out of my control. I will be happy, and I will die the way I want to. I hope that I get “disposed of” quickly and with a honourable burial of some sort. I wouldn’t forgive the people who did it wrong if they did it wrong!17

What is this end, you say? I’m not sure myself. In fact, I am clueless. All I know is that it will be worth it in the end. My ambition, hope and determination will be rewarded in a way that will make me happy. I am destined for greatness, I’m sure of it.18

So, you think life sucks? Why? Because you’re not happy at this exact moment in time? You know what happiness is. You’ve felt it. Same goes for love (which does no suck either, for your consideration. Pain might not be pleasant, but you’ll learn from it). They help us feel alive, with each new day comes a barrage of pure sensation that you cannot deny. Pleasurable or not, we feel it. Never doubt yourself. If you want happiness, go and get it. Live with the pain, because it’ll be worth it in the end. Never doubt it for a second. Just forget the bad thoughts and think of your own personal reward at the end. Can you think that it is worth it? You should. It is, so don’t fear. You’ll all see it in the end, whether you’re depressed, suicidal or unaware that people suffer far greater than you. People die and people come into our lives. Embrace it! Become one with everything that comes and goes! It’s what makes us who we are, and we should never hate it.19

Personally, I don’t think I’m attractive. I have been told I am on several occasions, still yet unable to believe. I don’t hate my looks, I have grown accustom to them. They’re with me for the long run; I’ll never change them for the world. Not to be arrogant, but I love the way I look, I will never change it for anybody. 20

I’ve fallen out with people, but after writing this, I shall personally see to it that I make friends with them again. I have recaptured my muse! I shall not let it go to waste. This shall be the first amongst many passages I shall scribe and craft. I will make sure I am sorry for my mistakes, for I am. I shall apologize to them and learn from them.21

Go ahead and tell me life sucks. Go ahead. Give me a reason why it sucks. Broken hearts, pain of death, torment and torture. We all go through it. It’d up to us what we do with the memories. We either hold them close to us or distance ourselves from them. I personally chose to love them all. If you chose to distance yourself, bottle up your problems and enclose yourself in your own malice, do that by all means. I’ll still be trying to help you every step of the way. I’m too compassionate to stand by and let somebody go without my help if I can offer it.22

I’m glad you had time to write this. It’s filled me with great inspiration and joy to know my words haven’t fallen on deaf ears.23

Until the next time we meet.24

Yours faithfully,25

The Sirk.26