What you don't know: Two

mom works1

as a fashion designer2

snipping patterns3

drawing outlines4

fitting clothes on models5

sometimes stiff dummies.6

she attends7

fashion shows8

were girls catwalk9

down the runway10

strutting her work.11

she's proud12

of what she does.13

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mom is also proud of15

her boys.16

specifically Stephen and Markus.17

her pride18

and joy.19

I wish I20

could make her21

proud of me.22

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About the brothers24

same height25

same wavy brown hair26

same ivory green eyes.27

womanizing 28

jocks29

who always get what they30

want.31

worshipped like gods.32

they are simply everything33

I'm not (even if I'm as good looking as Anthony):34

perfect.35

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when I was six37

I tried so hard38

to be Stephen and Markus.39

they could play football. run fast.40

I was their little brother.41

in my eyes they were the coolest guys42

on the planet.43

I'd try to tag along44

be cool just like them45

but fail.46

and they'd laugh.47

mom told me that48

they had their own friends49

didn't want me around.50

I'd have to make my own friends.51

I 52

was53

very54

disappointed55

.56

***57

Casey58

was a baby59

duck60

who wandered61

into our62

backyard one stormy63

day64

I found him 65

waddling66

around67

inside the plastic68

blue pool69

used to bathe70

our dalmatian, Skye.71

begged mom to let72

me keep him73

promised to take good care of him.74

after all,75

Stephen and Markus76

got what they wanted,77

wasn't it time78

that I got something too?79

they mimicked my whines80

mom sighed as she repeated no81

when I begged again and again.82

grandma convinced mom83

to let me keep him84

but Casey had85

to stay with her.86

I was okay with this.87

as long as I got to keep him.88

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speaking of90

getting what they91

wanted,92

Stephen and Markus93

have had more girlfriends94

then Donald Trump has had wives.95

sympathy is96

all I have for those97

girls 98

that fell in love99

and walked away100

with broken hearts.101

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girlfriends103

just because104

I've never kissed a girl105

or had sex106

doesn't mean that I haven't had girlfriends.107

but I've never had any.108

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crushes110

I've had those.111

well one.112

for one girl.113

and one girl only.114

I want her to be my girlfriend.115

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her name is117

Bjou.118

she lives next door.119

moved in when I was eight.120

family came from Britain to121

America for business reasons.122

Jame baked cookies123

typical neighborly greeting gesture124

made me come along.125

I hid behind her126

while the grown ups talked.127

then I saw her128

coming out of the house.129

she said hi to Jame.130

glance at me131

waved132

and smiled.133

'Hi.'134

too shy to speak135

I just smiled and waved.136

and fell in love137

without understanding138

of the emotion or the word.139

my 140

world141

revolves142

around143

her.144

sun in my morning145

moon in my night.146

sounds cheesy147

but I don't give a damn.148

I want her.149

and of course150

she doesn't know that.151

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