What you don't know: One

my name is1

Westmen Coaches.2

mom named me after 3

a coffee house in Sarasota4

had me in the restroom5

with the help of two waitresses6

no one calls me Westmen7

except my grandma Jame.8

and she only uses9

first10

middle11

and12

last names13

if your in trouble.14

everyone calls me West.15

Hi, I'm West Coaches. 16

What's your name?17

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About Me19

five foot eleven20

two hundred-three pounds21

black hair22

gray eyes23

quiet24

baker25

part-time vampire ( I like to spend most of the day hidden in darkness)26

artist27

loner28

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deepest, darkest, secret30

I'm a virgin31

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things I've never done33

kiss a girl34

look at porn ( I swear)35

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things I have done37

masturbated (doesn't everybody?)38

beat up a few kids39

pour Gatorade into gas tanks40

pilfer cash from mom's purse41

set firecrackers in mailboxes42

fill condoms with water and leave them on doormats43

drink44

smoke45

tattoo46

shall I continue?47

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tattoos49

illustrations50

from51

my shoulder52

to53

my wrist54

both arms55

covered56

in ink.57

most 58

I did59

myself.60

Hey,61

I'm an artist.62

everything63

looks64

like paper65

to66

me.67

***68

Existing Family members ( who do not approve of body art)69

Kirsten Marlow-mom who usually ignores everything I do. except for when the school calls.70

Stephen-older brother who ignores me to except to mock me.71

Markus-middle brother ignores me too except to mock me.72

Jame Sanders-grandma. the only person who cares and pay attention to me.73

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family I haven't met75

Anthony Coaches.76

my77

absent78

father.79

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About Anthony81

I've never met him.82

never talked to him.83

never received a letter from him.84

plenty of child support85

checks come in the mail.86

every month.87

Jame says I have his eyes.88

stone gray89

hard90

fierce91

cold92

Anthony was tall too.93

taller.94

six foot four.95

I inherited Anthony's96

good looks97

his personality.98

Jame said99

that Anthony100

wasn't a bad man.101

just102

very103

lost104

and105

confused.106

like me.107

***108

what I think109

I said110

Anthony is a jackass.111

and I hope he rots in hell.112

***113

b-stard114

rejection is inevitable115

for children116

without fathers117

born out of wedlock.118

no father orbiting119

their lives.120

I am used121

to mom's122

snobby123

brothers & sisters124

cousins125

friends126

giving me127

nasty looks.128

they know all about129

dirty130

jackass131

Anthony.132

according to their bible133

I'll be just like him:134

dirty135

jackass136

b-stard.137

***138

mom does nothing139

because she and I 140

know it's true.141

future is clear.142

I am destined to be143

a jackass.144

who'll live145

on the filthy146

streets147

eating out of trash bins148

committing offenses149

rot in a cell till the 150

day I die.151

we know it.152

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