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"Hey" Matt said apprehensively.1

"Hi" Sarah said without looking up from the table on which she had been crying.2

"Are you ok?" 3

"No"4

"Do you want to talk about it?" Matt doubtfully yet hopefully asked. Sarah wasn't one to talk about her emotions very often, and when she did it was usually on a happier note.5

"Yeah, actually" Sarah replied knowing how different this was for her.6

"I'm here for however long you want or need me"7

"I know. Well, I'm just so frustrated, scared, everything. I'm confused as to why she had to die. Why her? She did nothing wrong, she was the kindest, best person I've ever known. She didn't deserve to die. I'm just so confused. And I don't know what to do...I just keep seeing her there lying on the floor, she was so white and so cold. She was stiff, really stiff. I don't remember anything except seeing her there. The funeral...was horrible. I couldn't stand it...I couldn't look at the casket knowing that her body was in there. I didn't want to remember her like that, because it's the opposite of what she is. She wasn't cold, and stiff. She was full of life and a very warm, loving person. If anyone in this household should have gone it was supposed to be me! Not her damnit, not her!"8

As the conversation had come to a close, her tears had become heavier, and her breathing more shallow. Loud crys could be heard throughout the house and Sarah was shaking. 9

Pounding her fists onto the table minutes later, she was becoming exhausted with herself and her fits of crying. Her breathing became noticeably calmer and quieter. 10

"I just want to go to sleep and not think about it..." She said quietly as she drifted off into her own unimaginable world.11

"I know, I know" Matt said quietly while going over to Sarah and picking her up into his arms.12

Scooping her so she was in both of his arms, her back on his arms...he carried her upstairs to her bedroom. Gently laying her down onto her pastel green sheets and tucking her darker pastel blue covers over her, he kissed her forhead. 13

Lying down next to and holding her for a little while he eventually got up and went downstairs and fell asleep on her couch.14