Tout Que J'ai Besion Est Vous 40

Gerard sat shocked for a moment you looked at him and smiled. you weren't ready for a kid. you  both were in your twenties. You wouldn't be a good mom. you're not ready. you're not ready. you'd drop him. or hurt him. you had no idea how to raise a kid. and Gerard… his career….. it'd be ruined! he'd have no time alone…… he'd be distracted the baby…..It  would cry…… he'd get no sleep….. you'd get no sleep….. what would happen?….. Frankie would hate you….. the band would fall apart….. if you gave birth on the road...then you'd have to stop the tour….. thousands of fans would be heart broken…… all because you wanted to have 10 hours of.... the thought of what you did…. though it was awesome and beautiful and was completely enjoyable. ……made you sick to your stomach….. there was someone growing inside of you. ….like a parasite……. soaking up your nutrients. 1

*We're pregnant?* Gerard looked at you with strange look on his face. when he shook his head and sat up straight. *We're pregnant!!!!* you watched him. his eyes sparkled like the sun. he smiled widely and kissed you . he jumped off the bunk and started dancing around. 2

*Yeah. we're pregnant!* you laughed at his dancing which had no beat what so ever and looked a bit like river dance on acid. 3

*I'm going to be a dad!* you smiled at him 4

*you're going to be a dad!* 5

*I'm going to be a dad!…… YOU'RE GOING TO BE A MOM!!* 6

*I'm going to be a mom?* your heart panged and a feeling of nausea temporarily flooded you 7

*YOU'RE GOING TO BE A MOM!!!* Gerard lifted you off of the bed and spun you around in the air. 8

*What are we going to call it…is it a girl or boy? Mikey's an uncle!* 9

*All of the guys are uncles!* you laughed. Gerard remained planting kisses on you whenever you weren't wiggling away. it seems that you were the only one that was freaked out about this whole baby business. Gerard was singing and dancing like a hobo that won the lottery! He was ecstatic and it was cute at how excited he really was. 10

*Gee… how are we going to do this?!…… it's going to be hard with you on tour…. i can't possibly stay with you…... we'd need to get a home…… we'd have to go back home. …..we'd not have any room for a cradle……. and we couldn’t change diapers here….. we'd have no clothes for it…… we'd... it just wouldn't work….. we'd be horrible parents! what if there are birth complications….. what if i die giving birth?…… what if it's unhealthy?…..what if she has a birth defect….. what if she…..dies…* 11

*Samara Helena Way? no no, too many a's.... um...Emily...Emily Helena Way.... I like that!* Gerard kept going on about names. 12

*Gerard were you listening to me?!* he snapped out of it and looked at you. 13

*Yes… i was…. we can tour still…… the tour would be over next month we've only have one show left in the tour anyways. and we could go to my house and live there. my mom would love it. she'd love to see you again and we could get married and have your dad walk you down the aisle. and everything would be prefect. we'd have plenty of diapers and if we were short on money I can always get a part time job and we could book shows near home and I’d always be there. and the baby couldn't cry all the time. and you'd still be beautiful and everything will be like a fairy tale.* 14

*but you see Gerard. that’s why they’re fairy tales and not reality. and maybe no one would book you guys. and what if you couldn't find a part time job. we can't live in the basement forever. this isn't gong to work. i can't have you smoking around the baby.* 15

*Then I’ll quit. and we'll fix up the basement and put a nursery in it. we could get it redone on the inside. I don't care what we'd have to do. but whatever it is we can do it. Tout Que J'ai Besion Est Vous...and the baby. we can make it. once me and the guys are rich and supper famous we can get a big house and we could give little Emily all the things she wanted. and we could give her all the love she needs.* 16

*Gerard snap into reality!* you said looking at him tears burning your eyes. 17

*I AM IN REALITY! Things will be perfect babe. just stop thinking so negatively. you're starting to make me scared.* 18

*What are we going to do?* you leaned against the wall and slid down hugging your knees. 19

*First we need to tell the guys. and then my mother...* 20

*no not yet not so soon. please Gerard. lets not tell them right now. please can we wait. can we tell them next week please. I don't want them to know. I have a bad feeling.* you had gotten up and had spun your hands into his shirt pleading with him. he's gentle gaze calmed you. he put his ands on top of yours pulling them out of the fabric and holding them within his own warm ones. 21

*then we won't tell just yet. but we do have to tell them soon.* 22

*in a week. then we can tell them just not so soon.* you were crying. and he kissed away your tears. 23

*Alright. just relax. I don’t want you to hurt yourself or the baby. I love you and I couldn't stand to lose you both.* You struggled to regain your breath. you needed to clam down. Gerard kissed you on the cheek. Gerard went to use the bathroom. and you went into the kitchen booth thing and sat down holding up your head with your hands. Frankie looked at you. and left into the bunk room. you sat there and tired to relax. when the door burst open to Frankie pushing Gerard out and punching at him. 24

*WHAT DID YOU DO TO HER?!* Frankie hollered at Gerard. you stood up at the advancing couple. 25

*I don't know what you're talking about Frankie.* 26

*then why is she crying?* Frankie asked. Gerard turned around to look at you and Frankie thrust his hands out and pushed Gerard who tripped and landed on top of you crushing you....and your stomach.  27