This is a true story... a true struggle that I am going through still trying to overcome it. 1
When I was little it never really bothered me, being alone... when i got home from school I used to go to my room and be there on my own, with my nose stuck in a book, dreaming of faraway worlds of fantasy and magic, of heroes and heroines, dragons and mystical creatures. At school I had friends, and got along with most people, we laughed together played football together,and basically had a good time. In class we all worked hard while at the same time having fun.2
Then when I started to go to secondary school, everything changed. At first it didn't bother me but as I grew so did that feeling inside, a feeling that I had never felt before.3
I was lonely.4
I made more friends at secondary school, but that didn't stop the feeling from growing. I saw everyone else surrounded by Friends, laughing as I had when I was a little boy. Yet I was never surrounded by friends as they were, I saw myself as an outcast, as a loner. 5
So I tried to accept this but something within me couldn't or wouldn't accept it. 6
I started to do karate because I thought it might raise my confidence, and maybe get some more friends, I did get a boost in my confidence and made new friends, but somehow that only reinforced the loneliness that I was already feeling.7
Everyday when I walk home from the school, I see people standing in groups, talking in groups,laughing and talking with their friends, it makes me sad, yet at the same time determined. I will be like that one day...... I hope.8
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You'll always have MEEEEEEEEEE!! Mwahaha! ok, maybe that's not a good thing....lol, haha, luv u! xx
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I know how you feel and have been there myself. All I can say is that it does get easier to make friends as you get older and meet a more diverse set of people. I nver really had true friends until I was in my late 20's, and one thing I can say is that I really appreciate the freinds I have now.
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thanks alot. you are right i spose bout me but still it kinda sucks u no
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im sorry you feel like this, i've always thought, the main reason u've never had a large group of friends was because you keep to yourself mainly. but also you matured much faster than the rest of us in the year, you started thinking about things in the world before the rest of us, had opinions and views, werent blinded my arrogance and had an opinion, few others in school have this. nd to b honest you wouldnt wana be in the large groups at school anyway cus there basically all chavs. wait untill you get to college, where there will b people of equal interlect to you, thats when you will stand around with a group of people and laugh
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Oh Em Gee! I feel EXACTLY like this. I've always felt alone and lonely, despite having friends. I just don't fit in because I'm different from all of them. I'm different from girls because I'm more into men's things but men don't want me around because I'm female. It sucks really. And there's people in my age group who are all happy and things and I'm the outcast and loner. It's horrible but I'm just not very well accepted. This so reminds me of me. I rarely hang out with my friends at all anymore. I never speak to them outside of school. *sigh* Sorry for the mega long comment but wonderful write, though it's sad because I know what you're going through and I don't want you to go through that.
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I know exactly how you feel. I had just recently changed schools because mine had been torn down. It took me forever to fit in and I STILL don't fit in very well. Im friends with the most popular kids in the school and im sort of popular myself. BUt I feel as though i don't fit in. No one evere hangs out with me and my old friends have completely forgotten me...
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