Notes [part 1- Dear Daddy]

Dear Daddy,1

This is specially written for you,2

I wanted to say a special goodbye to you.3

I know you kept shouting at me, I was a bitch,4

All you wanted was one last hug, but each last hug doesn't last5

There was always going to be another. Shame this time there isnt going to be another.6

You loved your luxuries more than me, I never really was top priority. 7

You left Tom behind, but at least you havent yet forgotten who he is,8

He's Your FUCKING SON DAD and I was your daughter. Your first child.9

Tell Jade I love her and never let any guys use her, tell Jeremy to keep on fighting back to those bullys and I love him. Tell Donna that shes lucky she has the life she has and that she better not hurt my brother, she may thinks shes safe but if she does I'll kill her. Daddy don't do anything stupid you need to be there for them. 10

I know I was never good enough for you but now I need to ask you a favour. I want you to keep a picture of me in Jades room, I want her to see what she should NEVER grow up to be. I'm not a good example. 11

Dad, If any of my brothers or sisters ever cut themselves or hurt themselves in any way, don't hate them for it. Keep an eye on them and try to help but NEVER make them stop if they can't NEVER.12

Hey dad do you remember all those arguments we had. Dad that one we had recently.. Yes I had been fucking drinking... Trying to drown all my sorrows... I'd been sniffing too and smoking. Dont forget cutting. Treat Tom better than you ever treated me and get back to England before it is too late for him too. Let him live a life he wants and dont you dare over protect him. Let him live.13

Got to go now..... Goodbye xXx14