Portrait of Another Drug Addict Lost at Twenty-Two

I think she just collapsed on the floor and laid there ‘till her tweaker’s twitches gave out along with her heart.  I think she died right there on the floor, I’m not sure…but when I hear her speak, I don’t see her anymore…I’m not sure though…I don’t know anything at all about that.  I did watch though…I saw nothing but god, I watched it all.  I could have died…I could have died right along with her. Well…maybe I did…1

Maybe I did because now we’re sitting next to each other on the couch.  I think my senses are so fucked up because I can hear her heart beating.  Dear god, it’s beating so fast… But maybe that’s my own heart in my ears.  Every time she moves it skips a beat.  She barely moves anymore now…except for when I ask here to pass the pipe.  Yeah, then she moves, but I can barely feel it anymore.  She used to move so beautifully…maybe she was even a dancer…actually she wasn’t.  She never liked that, but I like the way she moved.  2

“I’m tired,” I hear her say.3

It’s a little shocking how it breaks the silence…4

But she says things like this sometimes, especially that.  She never actually goes to sleep when she’s tired.  She never does.  Neither do I though…  It’s okay, we don’t need the sleep.  Haven’t needed it for a long time now.5

She turns and looks at me, right at me.  I haven’t seen her face full-on and clear for a while.  I’m still as sober as I’ll ever get close to being, so for the moment I pause to stare.  He lips are tinged with this curious purple color and her skin looks…clammy… I’d touch her but I’m afraid of how cold she’ll feel.  I watch the corner of her mouth twitch, trying to make some mysterious facial expression I’ll never really be able to comprehend anyways.  I think I might puke…6

“I’m tired,” she says again, and her voice is so hoarse.7

I remember when she used to sing…It was nice when she did…yeah…really nice…8

She stands up and I think I can hear all her bones creaking and scraping up against each other.  It’s such an ugly sound.9

But she stops and looks out the window and then she grabs my hand. I barely move.10

“Let’s go watch the sunset.”11

Somehow we make it up the stairs and we’re at the top of the building.  The sun is setting and I think the sky is bleeding for us.  The air is so much clearer up here and I think I say that out loud ‘cause she looks at me and murmurs, “Breathe deep.”12

I did, I did, I did… 13

And I didn’t feel a thing.14

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  • Weave
    February 11, 2006
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    This is amazing. I wish I could use italics to emphasize, but no. So, let me try that again... This was AMAZING!!


  • February 6, 2006
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    cooly cool cool foo!

  • Exploit Stereotypes
    February 6, 2006
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    Hmm...Okay well *goes to change it* And don't worry i don't tweak lol i wrote this in economics class when i was really bored.


  • February 5, 2006
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    you don't tweak do you?.....please say no.....i don't know but for some very strange reason, i'm slightly offended by your new motto......i don't know why,
    it just like bothers me......yeah i know weird.....

  • Exploit Stereotypes
    February 5, 2006
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    thank yee thank yee

  • Exploit Stereotypes
    February 5, 2006
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    lol yeah me too stoney

  • Exploit Stereotypes
    February 5, 2006
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    ...yeeeeah...


  • February 5, 2006
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    Hmmmm.....?

    tweaking is bad........i'm against such evil lol.....


  • toolittletime
    February 5, 2006
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    I like this, very thought provoking.


  • Amun Ra
    February 4, 2006
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    hmmmm ok....................

  • Exploit Stereotypes
    February 4, 2006
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    Thank yee thank yee. Glad you liked it

  • Jinxgirl
    February 4, 2006
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    I really like this a lot. very unique style to this, told in your own way, and it makes it very different and striking. I really don't know what else to say except this was very well written and unusual.

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