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as i lay here under the night sky. i wonder why he does this to me.you are like a flee that just wont let me be.when I'm happy you bring me down. its like nothing that ever do is good enough for you. i try and clean up hate beer  broken bottles. i try to cook you dinner with out burning it . but no matter how i try you still hit me. i try to be PERFECT and when I'm having a bad day i come home to you. people ask me What's wrong and i lie . and when they see the bruises they ask more questions . its like NOTHING that i do is ever worth it. why do you do this to me i wonder.i try to look for your heart but it is know where to be found. as i lay here on the cold wet ground i pray to god that you will not find me . for i am laying here bleeding everywhere all because i didn't get you your beer fast enough.i am on my knees Beg lord for forgiveness and asking him to make you love me, for there is something that i could have done . as i pray that you would go away., i turn around and there you are. i tell you that i am sorry for what i have done, but it wasn't enough was it cause you pulled out your gun. as i lay  there i pray to god to bless you forever and always for i am your daughter and i will ALWAYS love you daddy.1