Moment of truth (?)1
Nicole vanishes2
probably perched on the3
stairs listening.4
Zale follows me into the5
kitchen. We stand at the breakfast6
bar, having a stare contest.7
His fingers tap the counter top8
eyes fastened onto mine9
like magnets attached by force.10
waiting_waiting_waiting_11
he's waiting for me to speak.12
I'm waiting for him to speak first.13
I don't know how to get14
my words out of this jumble15
of a crossword puzzle. They're so hard to find.16
Zale sighs.17
'Denzel...isn't there something 18
you want to tell me?' He speaks calmly.19
I stare at the floor.20
cross my ankles.21
uncross them.22
cross them again.23
I'm throwing junk out24
of my closet, searching for25
my lost voice box.26
clear throat.27
'Look at me.' he says28
I look at the wall instead.29
'Look at me.'30
still haven't found31
my voice box yet.32
'Look at me!'33
I look at him.34
'Tell me.' He says35
Intermission!36
God why can't you be nice37
and help me? Is it because I stopped38
going to church? Is this revenge?39
If it is, your not all as loving40
kind, and helpful as they say you are.41
And you better not be laughing at me.42
'I'm pregnant.' I say. It sounds dumb coming from me.43
Zale swears. Grabs his hair44
prays a silent prayer to the ceiling.45
'But-you already knew that. Right?'46
He scoffs.47
'Yeah. Thanks to Clare.'48
My face falls.49
'Yeah. She, uh, came over Thursday50
to tell me. Well to tell my parents.'51
I am going to kill Clare.52
And go to jail for it.53
Zale doesn't say anything more.54
Silence cuts me in half like a sword.55
Here I thought words hurt. Silence is pain56
because it's coming from Zale. 57
Never has he been this quiet with me before.58
Minutes pass. I'm thinking59
loud enough for my thoughts60
to cover the silence.61
'When were you going to tell me?' 62
He says finally. 63
'I...don't know. But I was going to64
tell you but-'65
bomb goes off. He explodes.66
(No, all hell doesn't break loose)67
'Denzel, it's been two months!! I mean..68
the whole time!! The whole damn time?69
You couldn't tell me this?' he screams.70
slams his fist onto the counter71
yanks his hair.72
I turn to walk away.73
I need time to think.74
Zale grabs me wrist before75
I have a chance to escape.76
'Why the hell didn't you tell me?'77
I swallow.78
'I...was scared.' Truth.79
'Shit.' he releases me80
starts pacing the floor81
and yanking his hair again.82
He's going to be bald83
by the time this conversation84
is over.85
'You should have told me.' 86
'I was scared.' I repeat.87
'Scared of what? Of what!'88
he searches my face, reading.89
I am too ashamed of my thoughts.90
I answer him without speaking.91
It's all over my face. 92
the reason.93
'Denzel you know I am not like94
that! We've been through hell and 95
have made it through. I've been here for you. 96
I would never leave you. Especially by yourself97
to take care of...our baby. Never. I wouldn't98
do that. I love you too much. Why would you think?99
Why would you doubt me? Don't you trust me?'100
Dagger to the heart. Did I trust Zale?101
Did it evaporate the minute that stick turned blue?102
He sighs.103
'You should have told me.'104
'I know.' I mumble.105
More silence.106
I watch the wall.107
'Now my parents are mad as hell108
because I kept this from them.109
They didn't even let me explain110
that I didn't know.'111
'I'm sorry.' I blurt. I mean it. I know112
I should have told him. Nicole told me to.113
I was so stupid.114
'What were you going to do huh?115
runaway?'116
'I thought about it.'117
Zale sighs again. He looks at118
me, hurt and mad, hair ruffled.119
Tears in his eyes. Please don't cry,120
I say inside.121
He sniffs, shrugs. 122
'Well...fine. Whatever you want to do.123
You didn't come to me...made your decision so...124
whatever. I don't care. If it's what you want...fine.'125
He's leaving me?126
Did we just break up?127
He leaves without saying bye.128
I beat my face with sofa pillows129
crying, screaming, cursing.130
Nicole tries to comfort me131
but I won't let her.132
stupid133
stupid134
stupid135
stupid.136
Author notes
eh so yeah. it could have been worse. guess it is. Zale's gone. he's heartbroken. the poor boy. somebody go give'em him a hug. leave hugs for Zale. oh and for Denzel too. sorry to disappoint you hopefulls for a happy ending-oh wait..the story isnt done yet. things could get better.
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lol!! My friend has been cussing me out because of this!!! 26-30 has been added. I posted two today so there's plenty to read. I planned on adding two more but I decided to keep you all waiting a bit longer-but not too long!!!! But I am almost finished. Thanks for reading!!! it means a whole lot!!!!!
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EXCELLENT!
This is wrong...i just got into this story, read all of them, thinking there was going to be more. I am over here panicing. Is he going to stay with her? Did he say that out of anger. Man, you need to publish this other than the internet. Gezzz..I even stopped talking to my boyfriend today to read all this. Gezzz...hurry and finish this up! GREAT WRITING! -
Wow!! Thank you so much!!! I don't know what else to say because I'm kind speechless. I'm more like Zel in a way. No, I've never been pregnant and don't plan on being pregnant until I'm at least married!! Zel and I are both stubborn. We like to do things our way and we're both afriad that if we tell the truth people will hate us or stop loving us. Nicole is kind of based off me and my little sister, who's always giving me advice when I'm very lost and confused (which is usually all the time). Rock music rocks and that's all there is to it!!!! I've posted 26-30 so check them out whenever you have the chance. Thanks again for reading!!!!
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I love your entire series of poems, and this one made the tears roll down my face for hours. I have a very close friens who has been in this situation, and I am very like 'Nicole' in this story. The only difference is, her and her boyfriend never fell out about it, and they are happily engaged and living with their daughter, Hope right now. Which is really great, their love is so deep they could get through anything. I adored these poems, so deep, raw, emotional. I linger on every word, not wanting to miss a thing. I love your style of writing, and the explanation of how you write is pretty much what I like. Rock music, well, erm Rocks!!!
Keep up the amazing writes,I am extremely interested in how this one turns out.
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Well...I was listening to rock music while writing this. And when you have a bunch of guys screaming lyrics about hate, anger, and sorrow in your ear-your writing can usually turn out that way. I like listening to music when I write because it sets the mood-well helps me write out the scence. I changed it a bit though because Zale was cussing like a sailor in the original. In this one he's kinda nice but not really. Personally, I don't think Zel has been thinking clearly ever since she found out she was pregnant. She talks to herself, has imagniary friends-but I guess that's the fun part about this story. That she has all these voices inside her head trying to tell her what to do and she's listening and sometimes not. Right now she's feeling guilty. And usually when your guilty you have a hard time looking a person in the eye. For Zel it's hard because she loves Zale, even though she doubted his loyalty. And she's feeling guilty for that, for not being honest..and most likely among other things. Plus she's not feeling worthy of his love because she doubted him. Let's just pray though that he still loves her ( most likely he still does) and will make things right. The both of them really. I guess all that will happen once Zale has gotten over his heartache. And everyone else really wants them both to stay together. So now I'll log out, cross my fingers, turn up the music, and see how things turn out.
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Wow. Now that's perfect. How the hell do you manage to get it so raw??? The 'Intermission' was just so beautiful, it broke everything up and showed how Zel isn't thinking clearly, because she couldn't even look at poor Zale. Bless his little cotton socks, he's a poor sod, ain't he? xxx
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he's coming back!! i think...all depends on if they make up and Zale forgives her. he's only leaving her now because he's hurt and upset. but im pretty sure he'll be back.
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heehee
no i would never leave the story like this-well ending it this way. i just like to mess with the readers, getting them all worked up because they expect a happy ending. i'm pretty much on both Zale and Denzel's side though I am more on Zel's because she is after all-my narrator.
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26 & 27 are in the works as i'm typing right now (no its not going to be posted-not today anyway). And yes Clare is horriable-we all hate her!!!!
damn her!!! this part was actually worse..but i changed it a bit for your sakes. i'll be posting soon though. perhaps tuesday. thank you for reading!!!
~Tia
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oh no!
the one thing she wanted to avoid happened! AHHHH! no no no no! you'd better make it become better, because this is making me a little sad right now! please tell me when you write number 26. thankyou. and Clare is one horrible &&^%$. arrg. AWESOME write though! -Juliette
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O.O OMFG.
Okay, so I was wrong, Clare told Zale. . And she should die for that, the evil bish. .
I can't believe Zale lefttttt
This is definately one of the best chapters yet. You had SOOO better come up with the next one sooonnnn. I swear I'll keel you Tia. . I promise. . Cause I keep waiting and waiting. . . And waiting. . . AND THAT'S NOT FLIPPIN COOL MAN. . o.o
You'd better post NOWWWWWW o.o
</3<3 Luff ya! -
amazing
that is really really really really really really really good! i cant wait to read more! you should really write a book! keep the amazing work! -
Awwww, that's so sad! Why did he have to leave, he just got here! Cant wait for more though!
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lol i was like um what you are not leaving us in the lurch like that. well that was pretty darn hard. here's a hug for zale even though i still am on zel's side cos i know how hard that would be to live with...
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yay
zale ppooooor baby can't wiat for more@@@
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