Open.

No one told you that it was the small things that made the big things. Maybe it wasn't big changes that changed things. Or maybe the big changes, were just made from a serious of little changes, and the big moments, were just small, seemingly random things. Such gestures as lavish presents, constant words of affection and expression of feelings seemed to be a given thing in your deep subconscious. But then along came holding hands, and fleeting looks, and tiny kisses.

Until you opened your eyes and saw that it was more then that. It was a memory, a moment, and all of them together were going to make up the biggest thing yet. Your life.

No one said that people were perfect, but somehow, it subconsciously got banged into your head that they were. Somewhere along the line, somehow you got the idea that yes, people made mistakes, but those should be rectified immediately no matter how trivial. Somewhere, you started expecting a hellva lot more then you should have.

Until you opened your eyes, and saw it was more then that. It was the people around you, saying certain things, and behaving in certain ways that were going to change the biggest thing yet. Your character.

No one said that you'd find the perfect partner, but you automatically expected it. No one said that friendships wouldn't always last, and relationships took work. Somewhere, it was filtered in that things always work, by some form of magic, because that was fate, that was destiny, but really that was you just being god damn lazy. In a world that gave you everything, why should you have to think at all? Expect from him, or her to provide everything.

Until you opened your eyes and saw it was more then that. It was being there for someone just as much, if not more then they were for you. Seeing that that perfect partner was as much looking for you, as you were for them, and it wasn't going to last forever, but however long it did last, it was going to end the biggest thing yet. Your search for happiness.

No one said you'd find God. They all assumed you'd either have a belief in him from the beginning, or you'd oppose him. But none of this wishy washy semi belief that changes daily depending on the mood, and the feelings of your being. None of this bargaining with God, or fate to get something you wanted. It was assumed that you would be saved, that salvation and redemption would both help, and at the end, God would solve everything.

Until you opened your eyes and saw it was more then that. By believing you didn't become invincible. It was letting someone else take care of you, but not shifting the blame onto them when things went wrong. By believing, you didn't lose any sort of independence, and there was no shame in needing help. It was going to bring the most coveted thing in the planet. Your search for peace.

And no one said, no one ever said, that things could be this great. In such a sad world, it was expected to be stressed constantly, and the small rare moments of anything other were to be cherished or put in a box and saved for a rainy day. No one said earning money would be an easy thing, but somehow you really did think that in the sky, there was a set of trees that grew money on them.

Until you opened your eyes and saw that money was one thing, but riches was a completely different thing. And you'd had them all along. It wasn't the end or the start of any search or quest. You'd had everything you'd wanted all along, and any bonus's of happiness, peace, God, money or people, were just adding to the fire, making your life, the most perfect thing, ever given/created/seen. Perfect in the way that all the answers were in reach, but the problems kept you searching just long enough. And loving, every single piece of the puzzle.

Strangely, all you had to do was open your eyes.

Open your eyes,

then open your mind,

and then your heart.

And keep them open,

For the rest of your life.

Just..open.

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I have the headache from helllll. I don't know what this is. Rambling at one am on a sunday morning after a fantastic night . I am so tired yet refusing to go to bed at 1:36..blehh?

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  • RoseTintedGlass
    February 6, 2006
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    Man. You have a lot of insight. This write could be about no one and still be about everyone. I wonder where we get those ideas from? The ideas that life is supposed to be a certain way. That we know where we stand with things, that our relationships will work out, everything that is just FED to us or maybe we feed ourselves with it. But there are no happy endings because nothing ever ends... as you can see, you've been writing about stuff I've been thinking a lot about lately, but you seem to have it figured out. Bravo.

  • Ryoohki
    January 22, 2006
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    Once again, amazing. This perfectly illustrates many important things in life. A joy to read, as always.