Thorns and fire

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SINGING SWEET SONGS AS SHE HUMS THE TUNE2

I'm sat here listening to Chop Suey. Tears streaming down my darkened face. 3

LOST WITH NO POWER I STAND INSANE4

I feel so alone, why? It seems unfair almost like a malicious plot. Like I deserve to die. I do don't I?5

THE SANITY THAT LEFT DRYING THE SEAS6

I lost my sanity in the battle against my brain. Knowing my body should go but my brain should stay for my friends. The voices drive me insane.7

KNOWLEDGE THAT WILL NEVER STAY THE SAME8

I know that whatever I say, I will not have what I need. I had a dream last night and again my thoughts changed. Nothing stays the same, ever.9

STRENGTH INFLICTED THROUGH HANDS OF THORNS10

They say he wore the crown of thorns and died for our sins. It feels to me as if those sins were not ours but his. I hate whatever happens because I feel cheated. You prised a young girl from her mother before the child had time to breath and you left the eldest sister in a state of despair. Was there really anything wrong? I'm now dieing for the unfairness and lack of my luck in the world.11

WORDS WHISPERED THROUGH LIPS OF FORGOTTEN LIES12

I talk to her a lot still. I am not satisfied. She has no family where she is, and if she does not like I have family. She needs a sister to protect her. Somebody that has payed for her loss since she was small. Why does it not work, why? Am I meant to stay for my friends just like one side of my brain is telling me.13

THE TRUTH WHICH STANDS HONESTLY WRONG14

I have the grim reaper and an angel on my shoulder. The angel constantly talking to me to stay. I know that somewhere, sometime, someone will get hurt by me. Why should a young child have to suffer for so long when she could have what she needs with one action. The reaper telling me my sister is screaming and needs me, is lost and is being raped by the nothingness out there. Both voices talk at once and I cannot rest alone. To talk for myself. I'm lost and it seems as though drugs are going through my body, but the only drug hurting me is my soul.15

EYES WITH A SACRED GLANCE, SHOWING LOVE AND THE DESPISED16

I had a dream last night. Somebody decided for me. My head was in a noose and somebody pulled me down and  group of people stopped me. Physically held my hands behind my back and then talked normally, I felt protected and safe. I then woke up to the reality that that will never happen and I will be driven insane for the entirety of my life.17

BEAUTY18

I will never have19

THE FIRE20

That will always burn inside21

SCREAMING22

I will never stop inside23

WANTING24

I will never let myself have what I want so I will always yearn 25

SINGING SWEET SONGS AS SHE HUMS THE TUNE26

LOST WITH NO POWER I STAND INSANE 27

THE SANITY THAT LEFT DRYING THE SEAS28

KNOWLEDGE THAT WILL NEVER STAY THE SAME29

STRENGTH INFLICTED THROUGH HANDS OF THORNS30

WORDS WHISPERED THROUGH LIPS OF FORGOTTEN LIES31

THE TRUTH WITH STANDS HONESTLY WRONG 32

EYES WITH A SACRED GLANCE, SHOWING LOVE AND THE DESPISED.33

THE FIRE THAT DESTROYS HER34