DISGRACED...

i knew that i was doomed... had Domnica not come at the right time i would have died of an emotional stroke...i still couldnt get over the fact that petrica was only making a fool of me...it was disgusting to watch her sneer at me every time i entered the classroom....but that was not the end of it..1

julian had done it....he ACTUALLY posted those half naked pictures of mine that he took forcably, to all the guys in the school....i couldnt pull myself each time i saw the screensavers of the my pcitures on the school computer....all that with guys pulling me and telling me that i had a great body, as they called me prostitute.....i had broken down...broken down completely....but i had to do something about it....2

i knew i would be unjust...i was doing the wrong...but it was all a part of self defence......i quickly took out my handi cam, rapidly going through the video i had taped....and there it was, just what i needed....3

perhaps it was the influence of the alcohol, that made her forget that while she was kissing me....the cam was on, recording...i downloaded the pic into my computer and began working on it....,,..4

i searched all the photographs i had of my birthday party, two years back, at the time when julian was my boyfriend....and there it was....it was larry, one ofd julian's crownies, kissing some girl...now patrica would pay......i cut patrica's picture and inserted into larry's pic....and some finsihing touches , there it was - patrica kissing larry.....picture perfect...uploading the "perfect" picture and emailed it to each and evry person in school ...and through a bogus i.d with matt's (another crowny of julian) name....ha...there they all would be doomed - patrica, larry and matt....three birds with a single stone....and there would be julian...serves him right...wouldn't i luv seeing julian's disgraced face..hahaha...5

sure enough the next day was a rage....patrica and larry - the flittering luv birds..matt - the traitor....and julian - doomed....6

that night i returned back home....but sleep wouldnt cast its shadow on me...perhaps i was wrong...i had nehaved just like them....treachery....i shouldnt have done it....i was wrong...i cursed my self aloud...i had behaved like a haertless devil...it was devastating...no, i had only got back at them for doing all that to me....but what they did was wrong....and so was my deed....i couldnt see myself in the mirror...the day before i was a disgrace for the school...but that didnt hurt me, for i knew i was right...but today i was disgraced truly....i cried bitterly...i called domnica ...and told her evrrything....she told me would come over that night....i was disgraced...