Matter Of Bad Timing

Dear Heart...1

I met a Boy today...Hes nice and sweet and really cute...Prepare to shatter.2

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I walked into school like any other day, but once I met up with Becca something was different, She had a new boyfriend. His name: Sean. I was skeptical at first but then after talking to him for a couple minutes i figured he was good for her. Then life went as normal. Me and Becca talk before and after school, Sean right there next to her. A couple weeks go by nothing really special. Mall every weekend, Sometimes with Sean sometimes without. Week three comes around and there still together... odd. She says she loves him, She loves him more every time she sees him. Every time I see him, He gets Hotter. So we start going to foot ball games and hanging out with friends in the practice field. Its week 4. Last week I had some what of a fling with a guy named AJ. It was more like a one night stand. I snuck out to see him one night and we just hung out. Sean and Becca are STILL together. There's a guy in my 3rd hour, Dustin, Hes kinda cute and fun to flirt with. The next week at the foot ball game I flirt with him and a guy named JT. Sean and Becca are still together. OK now i have a huge crush on Sean. He calls me when Becca aggravates him or he cant get hold of her. I love just listening to him talk and I'd do anything to listen to him laugh. Hes a great listener and he can make me laugh. They had been fighting a lot lately and they decided to have another big blow up at the next game. They were separate and communicating between my phone and Dustin's phone. It was so stupid. Well they ended up making up....then making out. That's OK though because Dustin asked me out. He was really cute so I said yes and ended up making out with him. That went well for a wile, turns out, Dustin is only fun to flirt with, as a boyfriend, he's boring. So I ended that a couple weeks later. Becca and Sean are still together! but I can tell they are fighting alot. Becca has a temper and Sean has been calling me more. There are no more football games and they have been going out for about a mounth and a half. Sean always tells me how much he loves her. He doesn't know how much I like him. Then, one day, Becca tells me she doesn't really feel the same about him. I get a sudden burst of happiness, Shes gonna break up with him. Then as quickly as it came it left, Its gonna break his heart. She tells me shes on the phone with him, I hold my breath, She tells me she cant do it...I say yeah before she asks. I call him and tell him she wants to break up. He sounds so sad. His voice is heartbreaking. Then the line is quite. I ask if hes OK...no answer."Sean?" i get a "yeah yeah I'm here...why...why did she..." not really asking me but himself. I ask if hes going to be OK. He gets himself together quick. then we talk. I tell him I'm sorry and he asks me if he should  give her another chance. I want to scream no no no you idiot no!! but I say I don't know. I want to tell him how much I like him and that if he gives her another chance then she'll break his heart again. The next day, Becca makes a comment, You never know how much you love someone until you don't have them. So when Sean called me that night, I told him to call Becca. the conversation ended with I love you from both of them so they are back together. I should be happy...but I'm not. so they stated going out again for another mounth or so. Sean called me more and more. They were having problems again. A guy named kyle, who I have to say, is extremely hot. Becca was flirting with him alot but so was I. Then one night, Sean called me, and asked if I thought Becca would ever dump him for kyle. I told him my honest answer:4

She might, But if she did, She would be one of the stupidest people I know if shes not already. 5

He asked me why6

my answer:7

because, you are one of the greatest guys i know. Your sweet and nice and funny and not to mention your hot, but its alot deeper than that its the fact that you can be happy whenever and you can be yourself and your OK with it.8

A few days later, I told everyone I was going to move to my moms in Arizona. It was a couple weeks before Christmas. The day before i left, i gave Sean his Christmas present just a little wrist band...nothing special he gave me a belly button ring and a hug goodbye. Then I almost cried on the plane. I hadn't put my belly button ring down sense he gave it to me. Then when i got to Arizona all was well. Then I called him and we kept in contact. then a few weeks later, Becca tells me she wants to break up with him again. I warn her that hes not gonna take her back again. She does it anyways. So he called me. He calls me alot now. If I ask how his day went, He'll say great then  tell me that Becca was flirting with kyle then she will tell me cause she knows he calls me. She wants me to tell him that Kyle is her display picture but i wont. I was talking to him the other night. I was telling him that he should come down here, just joking around, and he said he would if he could. I told him to hitchhike, he could meet some interesting people. He told me I was the only interesting person down here. So i figure I like him, he likes me, its just a matter of bad timing.9