Shaynes Addictions Entry 3

Dec. 27/05 (23:22)1

Master has let me out quite a bit lately. Only to discover she has smoked us all crippled. She has had too many visitors but, its helped her get us all through the holidays. Ian and Seth have been here a lot. Jake, our newest mate, was here partying with us when it turned into an orgy, well, a foursome. One more person and it would have been an orgy. It added an A to Ians and my chart. Oh, wait. It added an A to my chart and Ian got the R he already had. It was his ex, and someone totally new for me. Alright, master has been writing bits and pieces of a poem in here. I'm going to help her put them all together. Here goes nothing:2

If I only dreamt3

I would be able to see your face4

I'd relive all the memories5

The good and the bad times6

All the memories are nothing7

The dreams would be a waste8

I only want to forget 9

I'm so close to getting over it10

I'd touch your face11

Interlock our fingers12

You'd bring your lips close to mine13

Gently lean in and kiss me14

This distance is worse than anything15

All is lost within me16

You have ripped open my heart17

It's finally starting to heal18

We pull eachother close19

to the point where close20

isn't close enough21

We need to get inside eachother22

Why must you keep talking to me?23

We're just leading eachother on24

Can't you see I do love you?25

It's just not worth it26

We pull our jackets off27

We end up on the bed28

Stripping one anothers clothes off29

We're both being difficult as usual30

Pain we're putting ourselves through31

All for what?32

Broken hopes and dreams?33

It'll never work, stop lying34

I move you away from the wall35

Aggressively kissing you36

You sit up so I can take off your shirt37

Your nipples get hard as I play with the rings38

You'll never move out here39

Opportunities are there40

I'll never be good enough41

We'll both find someone else42

You moan as I rub between your legs43

As I meticulously undo your pants,44

you strip me of my shirt45

This is the most heated time ever46

We're too young to be47

planning all of this48

We'll die as we lived,49

far apart and distant50

I hold your hands above your head51

My cold hands reach down your pants52

I nibble on your neck53

You don't care about the marks54

It was all based on lust55

Just a vacation fling56

you got too attached57

I couldn't tell you the truth58

I rub my fingers along your clit59

You moan and try to kiss me60

I pull back teasingly61

You look deep into my eyes62

Your heart couldn't bare it63

I kept in touch64

Letting you believe this all along65

I started to feel something66

I look away as my fingers enter you67

Pumping harder and faster68

Trying to distract you from the truth69

I was using you all along70

I wanted to talk to you71

Your phone calls became important72

Your voice became music73

I fell in love74

Companionship and sex is all I wanted75

Just a simple pleasure76

A disposable one at best77

A gullible fool78

I can't live without you79

I need you here with me80

Stay by my side forever81

We're lost without eachother82

Well, that's kind of two poems combined. A collaboration of sorts between master and I. It is a couple of dreams master has shown me unaware. Though, she doesn't remember them. Her subconscious showed me. I'm off to bed. Master has to work a twelve hour shift tomorrow. Hopefully she will get a good bit of sleep. Well, take care and come back for more if you can handle it.83

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