Need another psychotic?

Need another psychotic? 1

Inhale.2

Exhale.3

Sigh.4

It’s been two hours already and I find my eyes wondering over the clock again.5

22:206

22:357

22:508

23:029

23:2710

I’m so bored my throat is numb, from swallowing water awkwardly, scared to breach the intense sound of buzzing computers. 11

Inhale12

Exhale13

Sigh.14

The little energy it takes to make more coffee, the short space I have to drag my lazy stubborn feet, seems like an arduous quest.15

The quest to restart my brain.16

Coffee has turned my mind into a computer, I find myself worrying about productivity late into the night. Binary floods my mind with never ending loops, never ending possibilities, calculations, modifications, reaction time and speed. 17

I’m starting to point out mistakes and flaws to the people around me.18

Ever had someone complain your clock isn’t correct, that it should be right on time so you don’t miss anything and become late?19

That’s what I’ve become.20

Inhale.21

Exhale.22

Sigh.23

23:4424

Still my mind refuses to subside this insane blur of pointless thoughts.25

I haven’t slept properly for weeks; night after night I worry myself to sleep.26

When I awake it’s usually past 4:00am.27

My doctor told me to stop my caffeine intake, up my exercise level and get natural sleep.28

I tried this, but it only led to something worse.29

Insomnia.30

Isn’t it ironic how the advice of your doctor always backfires, into an awful spiral of chain reactions in your body, causing you to slowly feel worse in every waking moment?31

Inhale32

Exhale33

Sigh.34

Deprived of all life slowly, we breathe, eat, sleep and die. But we do not live.35

Consumers of media products we, us, everyday people, are told we can buy life.36

So we do, we build our shell and nurture our deepest fears inside our souls.37

We hide real life at soul away from our minds.38

Inhale39

Sometimes I feel like I’m going to snap40

Exhale41

Sick of this continuous cycle and whirlwind of discombobulating routines.42

Sigh43

00:1044

It’s been three hours and I realise it’s time to finish this.45

One last drink.46

I stand with my Picasso-like knees, swimming in my surreal painting and STILL they do not register my presence. 47

Inhale48

Exhale49

Sigh50

Fake screams from a consumer drone, I hear your last words.51