The sky was bluer then every today. It was four days before Christmas and any sign of snow had not shown its face. Emma walked home today, she needed some air. Her last class had the heater broken and left many feeling like it was June already. Emma’s red hair fell into her face, thanks to the wind. She pushed it backed and shifted her coat. She was kind of upset over the fact that there was little chance of a snow white Christmas but other then that she was fine.1
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She opened the red door to her white house. 3
‘Mom?’ Emma yelled 4
Her mother wasn’t home. She walked as she took off her jacket into the kitchen. On the counter was a note from her mother held down by a Santa Claus cookie. 5
*Emma, 6
Hey honey. Be back around 6. Had to go to work. Call me if you need me. Here’s a cookie.7
Mom*8
Emma took the smiling Santa up to her room. She put her books and jacket on her desk. She then jumped on her bed with the cookie; press played on the stereo to listen to Jimmy Eat World and took out her drawing pad. She silently worked on the shading of a guitar she recently drew. She took short breaks to nibble on the cookie and after a while his legs and some of his stomach had disappeared yet he still had a smile. Emma had finial finish the guitar’s shading when the next song entitled “For Me This is Heaven” came on.9
‘The first star I see may not be a star.10
We can't do a thing but wait. 11
So let's wait for one more.’ 12
Emma sang to the band as they sang to her. 13
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Emma had a really nice life. 15
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Emma jumped up as she sang to the music. 17
‘"If I don't let myself by happy now then when?"18
If not now when?’19
She walked over to her closet and opens the door. A stool was placed off to the side which Emma grabbed to reach up on to the shelf over her clothes. She took a plastic bag down and brought it over to her bed. She reached in to reveal a bunch of gifts. A CD for Elizabeth, a watch for Hal, a necklace for Bethany and a jeweled hair clip for Gwen. She reached deeper into the bag for little gift bags to put the gifts in. As Emma worked on that the song faded and a minute later “Hear You Me” came on. Emma just put Gwen’s hair clip into a bright red bag when her cell rang. She leaned back and flipped it over.20
‘Hello?’ she asked21
‘Emma? This is, um, this is Bethany.’ Bethany said in a shaky voice.22
‘Oh, hey. What’s up you sound faint or something?’ Emma said holding the phone with her shoulder as she tied the gift with a bow. 23
‘Um, I’m not…I’m not doing well.’ 24
‘Why?’ Emma asked now with a concern look on her face25
‘Gwen.’ 26
‘Wh,..What do you mean Gwen?’27
‘She’s in the hospital.’28
‘God Bethany,’ she gave a sigh of relief ‘You scared me. Yeah I know Gwen is in the hospital. I talked to her yesterday. You know I think she is doing better. Hey, I ‘m wrapping her gift right now and..’29
‘Emma. Just stop.’30
‘What?’31
‘Gwen. She is, um, Gwen…she killed herself Emma.’32
‘What? Wait no. She was getting better and..’33
‘She killed herself, Emma. She took her shoelaces and…’34
Emma just shut the phone and dropped it. Emma looked over at the picture of her and Gwen with those cheesy best friends forever on it.35
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In the background Jimmy Eat World sang 37
“And if you were with me tonight,38
I'd sing to you just one more time.39
A song for a heart so big,40
god wouldn't let it live.41
May angels lead you in.42
Hear you me my friends”43
The Santa cookie sat their and smiled at Emma as tears fell on her bed. Emma looked up to yellow ceiling then out the window. It was snowing. It reminder her of a year back when she tired to do the same thing to herself and Gwen had stopped her. 44
It will surely be a snow white Christmas this year.45
Author notes
Wasteland'
My friend has tired to hurt herself a couple of times and just yesterday got out of the hosptial. I think she will be ok.
I also put some symbols in. Like the color red symbolizeis happines (irony) then I had the Santa and the snow. Their all suppose to be joy which is ironic. Also the music and some of the lines from the songs. If you read it over you should get it. (By the way for some of the musical changelled Jimmy eat World is a real band and those songs where real)
I just wrote from someone else who friend did kill herself. I thank god that my friend is alive. I will never show her this because both me and her might breakdown and cry.
Hey, im planning on using this in a novel im writing and the polt im changing things around though, names dates, but the plot and other things are the same
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Absolutely honest! I love that! I hope that! I dream that!If you want to take a chance read me.It is a very vast an eclectic venture Thanks for the thoughts and words.
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Wow this is really sad. I feel sorry for your friend and you. You read lots of stories about people who just can’t take it any more and just want it all to stop and I feel really sorry for them.
A girl at my school used to have problems and she tried to stop them by cutting herself. In the end she stopped with therapy but now she has changed totally. She used to be quiet and the naughtiest thing would be writing rude words on the board. Now she is totally psycho. She spends her time wearing to much eyeliner and having drinking parties. It’s really sad.
Hope you can get on with your friend. Life can be so tough sometimes. You just want it all to stop – but you mustn’t or it will just get worse. -
Thank you for your comment. I hope your friend is doing better as well.
Kelly Lin
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Very good story, hope you'll win the contest...
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Well I think I might breakdown and cry! this was very dark and emotional. For some reason it got scarier near the end-and I thought the bad news would be like she was pregnant or runaway...but this is much worse. Our lives really do make for good stories and often leave people thinking-like I am right now while trying to type out this comment-and question their life....and their relationships too if you know what I mean. This story also is kind of personal for me because I have a friend who I've talked out of commiting suicide three times. He's doing okay most days but like today-which happens to be his birthday, things are just going wrong. So I try to be 'there' and hang on. And I think sometimes that's the best we can do-also taking the time out to talk to our friends and hear them out. Usually people just want someone to tell their feelings too-that often keeps them from harming themselves. Especially when they just sit and listen instead of judging. This was really poetic in a way and I loved it. thank so much for entering and best of luck to you.
~Tia
Edited on Dec 20, 6:40 p.m. because ''.
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