""The Unhappy Fairytale" Chaper 8: Visitors"

When Jake woke up it was daytime, what time he didn’t know but because there was sunlight coming from the blinds he could only assume it was pat noon. When he moved over to his left to find the TV remote he found that it was not there. Actually the nightstand that had been there early was gone too. Upon closer inspection of the room Jake saw that it was completely different, but one thing stood out the most to him a camera in the corner of the room watching him. Jake stared at it wondering if it would blink, but after a couple minutes got bored and continued his search for the remote.1

Jake found it about a half a minute later it was on a stool half way across the room. The bed and the stool were about the only furniture in the room. There was a bathroom but Jake wondered if there a even a seat in there or just a hole. After a couple minutes of trying to think of a way to get the holy remote Jakes thoughts were interrupted bye the nurse as she walked through the door. “Good evening, and how are we today” the nurse said as she walked over to Jake to check his bandages. Jake felt very weak and even though he didn’t want this woman touching him he knew that he was in no condition to put up a struggle.2

After she was done she asked Jake if he wanted anything “ could you hand me the TV remote and I’m kinda hungry” The nurse smile and walked over to the stool and walked back handing Jake the remote. “I’ll have someone send up something from the kitchen, ok” Jake smile “thanks”.  After the nurse left Jake turned on the TV and changed the channel to cartoon network. After about five minutes and a man pushing a cart came in. he didn’t say anything he just placed a TV tray thing over Jake then placed a Styrofoam container and a can of juice on top of it and left.3

The food smelt good (for hospital food anyway) Jake opened up the container inside was what looked like a burnt pizza some applesauce and mashed potatoes. Jake scarfed the food down he hadn’t ate anything in like two days. A couple minutes after he finished the nurse came in again. He figured they could see what he was doing do to the camera. As the nurse picked up the food she asked Jake how it was “ it was good” Jake said. The nurse smiled and walked out the door, but before she closed the door she popped her head back in” you have two visitors they will be in a minute”4

Jake looked down at his wrists he could feel the tears began to form, but Jake held them back telling him self to be strong. That this was his fault and he had no right crying about it. Jake lifted up the edge of his bandage, it had started bleeding again he put the bandage back in place hoping that it wouldn’t bleed though. Jake heard a knock on the door, and felt his heart quicken, and his got sweaty.  As the door began to open Jake could only think that this it for him. That his mom would tell him that she was giving him up, but that’s not what happened jakes mother came running in. tears streamed down her face. “I’m so sorry Jake I didn’t mean for this to happen, if I had been there mor…I’m sorry!! 5

As she wept Jake began to feel so confused why was she…how can she forgive me. It’s not right she should hate me, but she doesn’t why? As these thoughts went through his head Jakes head he was that there was someone else in the doorway. It was Chris he was standing all quite like. When he saw that Jake was looking at him he inched himself over to the bed right behind Jakes mom. When she was that Chris was behind her she wiped her tears with her sleeves. “Hey I’m gonna let you two talk I’ll be right outside” she said shakily still trying to keep from crying.6

Jake’s mom kissed him on the head then walked out of the room Trying to put a smile on before closing the door. It was quite for the first couple minutes with neither one of the saying anything. Then out of nowhere Chris fell forward grabbing Jake and started crying. Jake who was so surprised by the action didn’t know what to do, he felt very awkward, but still put his arm around Chris. When he looked up he saw the same look of deep concern in his eyes, which made Jake feel even weirder. “I knew when I saw the bloody paper towel in the trash that night, but I didn’t say anything, because…but if I had known…I would have…I would have been there.” Said Chris as he cried. Jake started to feel extremely bad about all this they were suppose to hate him not feel sorry for him he didn’t mean to hurt them too.7

At this point Jake could no longer swallow up the tears and they came pouring out onto Chris’s shirt. After a couple more minutes of crying they both wiped there tears “I really am sorry” Chris sniffed “ I don’t want you to be sorry…why don’t you hate me your suppose to! Jake snapped. Chris didn’t even flinch it was like he anticipated it “ stop trying to make it out like you’re the bad guy, shit happen hell I don’t think any less of you your mom doesn’t” Jake felt a little better after what Chris, but were was Rob and he already knew the kids at school were not as accepting.8

Jake saw Chris’s eyes fall onto his arm “could I see” Jake thought for a second then lifted the sleeve on his hospital gown reviling nine cuts. All but one looked like bad cat scratches, the one that had happened when he jumped up into a nail was a purplish hue that looked quite bad, due to it severity. After a couple seconds Jake put the sleeve back down “ how bad are the ones on your wrists” “bad” responded Jake. Jake was about to say something when a man in a white lab coat came in “I’m sorry Jake were going to have to cut your visit short”9

Jake nodded and the man went back outside he could see him talking to his mom. His attention was brought back when Chris lightly taped on his shoulder. Jake turned to see Chris smiling though his tears “I’ll guess I’ll see you when you get out man and we’ll hang out ok. Jake nodded his head and Chris turned to go saying one last goodbye before closing the door behind him, he was real lucky to have a friend like Chris Jake thought. After a couple minute Jake mom and the man in the whit coat walked back in first she spoke.10

“This is Doctor Roosevelt he’s here to do an assessment on you, just as a precautionary measure to make sure that you are safe, ok sweetie” “sure” Jake grumble kinda mad at himself for not seeing this coming. “I’ll come bye later ok to see how stuff went” then she hugged him and walked out the door. Just as the door was closing the Doctor was pulling up a chair and he took out a note pad from a suitcase that Jake hadn’t noticed. Tapping he pen on the note pad the Doc began talking “so I understand that you’ve lost a friend lately, how did that make you feel”. 11

That was a low blow Jake wasn’t expecting that and it pissed him off that this Doc was speaking so light of the matter “ how do you thing it made me feel”  “there’s no need to get testy I’m only trying to help” the guy replied In a calm voice “so how do you feel right now” “I feel tired” Jake said the then yawned right after. After about 20 minutes of pointless questions about his mood and how he’s been feeling, the doctor finally stopped writing and put the note pad back into his suitcase. “Well I believe besides a the incident regarding your friend not to mention your home and school situation could have defiantly turned into your attempt to kill your self, not to mention your need to hurt yourself.12

“But for the most part I believe that you will be able to go home tonight, but I would like you to see a therapist twice a week, for consoling on how to better deal with any depression that might come about later”. It was going just as he planed Jake thought aside from the therapy he was off and as long as no one was the wiser to anything he mite do in the future he was in the clear. Doctor Roosevelt stood up stretched his legs and arched back “ I’m going to go get the forms ready and inform your mother ok, it’ll be like five minutes”; Jake smile “sure Doc”. Jake Made sure that the guy had shut the door before smiling to himself he was out13

About twenty minutes later Jake was home it had been a quite ride home he and his mom hadn’t said a word to each other since they left the hospital, but inside Jake really didn’t care he didn’t have that much of a “loving” relationship with her “ I gotta go they need me for a couple hours tonight I’ll be home in 10pm” Jake looked at the clock it was only 5pm but Jake still felt very worn out from his ordeal “could you get my blankets and pillow from my room” She nodded and left a short time after she came back, and dropped the blankets on the floor in front of him before lighting up a cigarette and walking out the door.14

“Well I guess the love is gone,” Jake said to himself remembering earlier today in the hospital. Picking up the blankets Jake walked into the bathroom of all place and put his blankets down in the tub. Once satisfied Jake lied down, on the way home jakes mom had told him that he would not have to school for the rest of the week, and this made him feel better knowing that for now he could rest not stressing over thoughts of what the kids at school would say. As Jake listened to the mumbled sounds of the radio in the next room, he began to drift in and out of sleep, and then he was flying with the birds. Jake felt free for now any ways, but he over looked the fact that this was only temporary and continued to fly though the great blue that could only be freedom.   15