Blogging the unspeakable

The colors of autumn have all but fallen from the trees, leaving them to stand there naked and exposed for the world to see. The colors litter the ground we all walk on, making that crunching sound with each new step we take, reminding us that the season has changed once again. Which in turn makes us realize how many other things have changed through out the year. December throws us into "the end" and again into the "new beginning". You marvel at the lessons learned in the year and silently wonder to yourself what beginnings will next December snatch away from you again. I hate change. 1

As quoted by the all mighty Adam "And I think impatience, at it's worst, is the realization of vanishing illusions." is the truest thing I think I've ever read. Impatience is only the evil desire to hold on to those illusions as they vanish from your site, leaving you grasping for the nothingness that the impatience led you to in the first place. It's like a constant circle of uselessness. 2

The clock ticks for everyone. Slowly, minute by minute, stealing our precious moments of life away from us. We all wonder what it is we should be doing, what is it that we are not seeing directly in front of us, but feel so clearly. What is it that we are waiting on, and why don't we know what IT is anyway? It's like our bodies are on auto-pilot and we are just along for the ride. Never knowing, understanding, or even caring what may be coming next, all we know is that we have to just "go with it". We're there in body and mind, yet still in some way we never feel like we're there completely. 3

I'd like to think that one day the answer to what IT is will just magically appear in front of me so that I can reach out and grab it, take hold of it, lock it away, and then investigate it when the timing is right. Right now, I kinda like not knowing, really, I just don't have time nor the effort to deal with IT. 4

Barry the computer guy at work just came to play on my laptop and read this. He say's he knows what IT is, but doesn't have time to explain it today because he's gotta go to Brookhaven. I seriously hope he's not planning to give me a lecture on religion.......because that is the LAST thing that IT could be. Stupid Jesus freaks. 5

Thats it kids.6