What right do you have to fuck with my life? You buggered off to Australia on my third birthday. And I’ve seen you three times since then. Three times in thirteen years. You must be so damn proud.1
Oh, sure. Sometimes you remember to ring. I usually get some cash in the mail as a Christmas present. You’ve forgotten my last two birthdays, though.2
I love you, Daddy. Of course I do. But sometimes I could fucking kill you for what you put me and Mum through thirteen years ago. No one has the right to put anyone through that. Especially not your wife and daughter. You were meant to protect us. But the only person I can remember ever needing protection from... is you.3
All I did was slam my thumb in the window, Daddy! You didn’t need to lose it. I was two years old, and I was in pain. Of course I was going to scream and cry. What did you expect?4
You didn’t have to react the way you did. You didn’t have to hit Mum. She was just trying to protect me. You didn’t have to lock us in the bathroom. And you didn’t have to go find your rifle.5
But we had to climb out the bathroom window.6
Would you have killed us, Daddy? Could you have looked me in the eye, could you have heard Mum pleading with you... and pulled the trigger anyway?7
I’d like to believe that you wouldn’t have gone through with it. I’d like to have faith in you. But in the back of my mind, there’s a nagging fear that faith in you is entirely misplaced.8
Fuck you, Daddy.9
Author notes
This is a letter I wrote to my father that I never intended to send. Unfortunately, I haven't exaggerated this situation at all.
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this was good. Have you ever heard the song "daddy" sung by Jewel? Its a good song and fits this piece of work nicely. I would listen to the song whenever I felt angry about my dad(we disconnected when I was 16 my dad doesn't like independent women and we only talk sporadically now)
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Wow this is truely.... Wow! I know what you are saying, my dad was an asshole! Therefore I consider him my father and my step-father, who lovingly raised me, my daddy. I don't think that the last line was too harsh at all. If that's how you feel then why sugarcoat it? Your feelings about him may change, but, for now if you keep it inside you'll just be hurting yourself! Good luck!
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prettyktm - I appreciate what you're trying to say - really, I do. One of my very good friends found out a few months ago that the father he'd grown up with wasn't really his dad... but at the same time, what he did to us was unforgiveable. I love him - he's my father. But it's hard to forgive someone, even family, for somthing like that. You know?
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awww hunny! i knew what had happened with your dad and all and i knew it was horrible.... but that poem just made it seem a whole lot worse than i ever already imagined! thats shocking chicky! you deserve so so so much better cause your an awesome person ae! i feel sorry for him as a person, i mean it must suck to have to live with the thought of what could have happened that day every single day ya wake up! but at the same time he deserves it! love ya girl!
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I can't relate with this work of yours at all, coz my Daddy was
my hero and dead stole him for me when I was nearly an year old child. But I still feel that the last line is too a strong work
for any father. and besides this it's good that you didn't send it. Tomorrow even you kids can feel the same thing about you, so
why don't you let things settle down for it self. at least you had a father to curse. think about those who never had a dad to love or to hate! -
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that was......wow. Really deep and intense. -
Most intense emotion written into this piece! Wow! I cannot speak for my partner but I can speak for myself and I must say that my own Daddy was an AWESOME man so I can't imagine any man not being a wonderful Daddy although I know that the bad seed exists; my ex husband was one of the bad seed. I'm so sorry for the pain and heartache you've gone through, my young friend! I send you hugs and well wishes for a happy and most prosperous life!
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It's no surprise thta you miss your dad. Everybody needs a fatherly figure in their life. And in my opinion that's what you miss, not the person himself. How could you miss such a brute that almost took away your and your mother's life?
My advice for you is to find someoen else whom you can rely on and look up too. And remeber that we are human because we make mistakes. Don't place anyone too high up. It's saves you a lot of heartache and disaapointment.
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