I'm Not Going Home Alone part 1

"Sitting out dances on the wall1

Trying to forget everything that isn't you2

I'm not going home alone3

Cause I don't do too well on my own"4

-7 Minutes In Heaven, Fall Out Boy5

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It wasn't the best night to be me on that night. That dreadful night. The night I lost it all over a rumor.7

... HOMECOMING DANCE ...8

I never did like to go to dances. I never actually danced, just sat there and look even more like an idiot that usual. But I was hoping homecoming would change that. Since this time I actually had a date. Her name was Jane. A good-looking girl, for my preferrences at least. Very nice personality, too. Basically, the exact girl I've always wanted to be with. She was smart, funny, and knew how to keep things interesting.9

When I picked her up that night, I swear she was the prettiest human being I have ever seen in my life. I just hoped other guys woulddn't get the intention to take her from me. I swear it's the worst feeling, seeing as this isn't the first time I have had a girlfriend. My other girlfriend, well, she wasn't exactly what you would call a "perfect little angel". She was mean and easily tempered. Luckily it was during the summer so I didn't have to deal with her at school. She left me because her friend said that her friend said that ... well ... she heard that I was cheating on her. The truth is, I never even thought of being with another girl at the time, but her temper didn't take it well. Seeing as how it was a rumor started by the lead quarterback on our football team, it was obvious he just wanted her. I don't see why, other than she was beautiful, on the outside at least.10

After we got to school and we walked to the gym, we could help but smile. We never said anything, just smiled. We waited a while for other people to get there; including Mr "I'll take your girlfriend and dump her the next day" Roger, the quarterback. With no surprise, he wasn't with my ex, just some new hussy he picked off this guy Jim. We exchanged an evil glare and he walked off.11

By the time we got into the gym, there was nobody dancing, at all. Of course, nobody wants to be the first to humiliate themselves on the dancefloor, at least not by themselves. It wasn't long before a group of people decided to just start dancing. And of course, trends catch on and the dance floor was full in the matter of seconds. Jane wanted to dance, but I just said to wait a little bit. I've never danced at a high school dance so I got nervous. I'm sure she could tell but she didn't get mad or anything.12

Twenty minutes passed and I could tell she began to grow bored of just waiting around. Rumors have it she's a good dancer, but I don't like to follow rumors. "Baby," she said calmly, "Why don't you want to dance?"13

I felt like dying at that point. The inosence in her voice was seductive yet puppy-dog-like. I replied, "Ummm...I'm not a good dancer." Since with the fact I've never danced, I would guess I am.14

She got sad and said "Don't worry." She gave me a soft kiss on the lips. "I'll teach you some stu-". Somebody interreupted her, and pulled her aside. Just when I built up the courage to humiliate myself. Oh well...15

She was gone for quite a while. Maybe 30, 40 minutes? I don't know. And by then I didn't really care. I went outside, where I saw her last. Thankfully she was there, but she was crying, alone. I walked up to her but she turned away. I had no idea what was going on. I sat next to her and asked "What's going on Jane?" She didn't reply. "Was it something I said?" Still not reply. I was getting kind of sad, know she was crying; but at the same time I was getting frustrated because she wouldn't talk. "Baby, what's wrong?" I raised my voice a little bit.16

"I can't believe you would do this to me! I thought we actually had something! All this love and care was just a cover-up!" She cried more and left me alone. I was confused, and sad at the same time. I didn't know what she was talking about...until I thought about it a little bit more. "Roger, that bastard," I murmured to myself. "I can't believe it. He told her the same thing he told my first girlfriend."17

I walked back into the gym and over to where Roger and his jock posse were sitting. "Roger!" I yelled. "You son of a bitch! You took my first girlfriend from me, and now Jane!? What the fuck did I ever do to you!?" I rolled up all my anger, sorrow, and confusion into one punch, right in the eye. And then another after that in the nose. Of course by then, his posse was enraged. With their "leader" bleeding, they just had to jump in my face.18

... TO BE CONTINUED ...19