I Hate That I Love Him 19

this chapter was kinda difficult for me to write :\1

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It had been almost a month since Tristan had dumped me. Each day just got harder and harder, and I didn’t know what to do with myself anymore. I know that I was fine before he came into my life, so I should be fine after, but he changed my life. The way I thought, the way I saw things, he just made a huge difference. And without him, I was lost.3

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“Hey,” Melody said, giving me a quick hug before looking me over skeptically, “you okay? You look kind of…dead.”5

“No, I’m not okay. And yea, getting dumped by someone you’re in love with tends to do that to you,” I snapped, unable to control it.6

“Whatever. Let’s go to a party tonight, you haven’t gone out in God knows how long, and we never hang out anymore,” she said sadly. I was in no sort of ‘party’ mood.7

“Whatever. I doubt it’ll make much of a difference, but sure. Why not,” I said shrugging.8

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When I got home after school I threw my bag down, wanting to sit around as I did every single day for a month.10

But I dragged myself into the shower, and then I picked out a dress, wanting to look at least somewhat attractive as I did my makeup. Melody would be here any minute now to take me out, and I needed it, to be honest.11

“Jasmine, Melody’s here!” I sighed, grabbing my phone and my jacket before heading downstairs.12

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“Are you excited? Tonight is going to be so fun!” I sighed as Melody started the car, beaming happily at me.14

“Yea I guess,” I said as enthusiastically as I could, smiling, “I’m just kind of nervous.”15

“Why? It’ll be so fun,” Melody said, turning a corner, “I promise you.”16

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As we pulled up to the house, I was a lot more nervous now. I haven’t even properly socialized with anyone in like a month.18

Melody parked, smiling with excitement as she got out of the car, locking it after I got out. We walked up to the front door, and I took a deep breath as she knocked.19

Some kid I’ve seen around school opened the door, smiling at us as we walked inside, and my stomach sank when I saw Tristan making out with some girl.20

Clearly he was taking this a lot better than I was.21

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I sat down, looking around nervously. I felt the couch sink next to me and turned, looking straight into Tristan’s eyes.23

“Hey,” I said, smiling as well as I could without crying. He smiled back, authentically.24

“So how are you?” How am I? Terrible, thanks for asking, asshole.25

“I’m good,” I said shrugging as I lied. I was terrible, and I felt broken inside, “how are you?”26

“I’m pretty good,” he said, “so what have you been up to? I haven’t seen you around lately.”27

“Just stuff,” I replied flatly. 28

I heard someone clear their throat before Tristan could answer, and I looked up and saw Devin standing over us. Just like old times.29

“Hey,” I said smiling at him; he smiled back at me before nodding in Tristan’s direction.30

“Hi,” Tristan said, no hint of any kind of emotion in his voice, “well I’m gonna head off, nice talking to you Jasmine.”31

Tristan got up, and I couldn’t help but watch him as he walked off. I didn’t notice Devin sit down until he snapped at me.32

“Jasmine! Can you stop eyefucking him? Jeeze,” Devin said, and I turned to him, blushing slightly.33

“Sorry,” I said, biting my lip.34

“So…you wanna go upstairs?” 35

“What? No,” I said, slightly taken back that Devin would even ask me to do that, “I don’t do that.”36

“No, not to fuck, just to talk. It’s fucking loud as shit down here, and everyone’s all over each other.37

“Mmkay,” I said, shrugging as I got up, following him upstairs. I locked eyes with Tristan, and he narrowed his eyes angrily as he watched me continue upstairs.38

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“I want to be with you Jasmine,” Devin said, as soon as we got into a vacant room.40

“What? No, Devin,” I started, my words not making sense, “Tristan broke my heart, I don’t want to be in a relationship.”41

“Jasmine, sitting around moping isn’t going to help at all. The quickest way to get over someone is to go out with someone else. In due time of course, and Jasmine, it’s been a month.”42

“I know…but Devin it’s not going to be fair to you, because I’m not over him,” I said softly, looking away before locking eyes with Devin.43

He closed his eyes for a moment in frustration before he leaned forward, kissing me.44

I was surprised, but I pressed back, liking the pleasant feeling of butterflies that I haven’t experienced in what felt like forever.45

“Please Jasmine,” Devin whispered, breathing slightly heavy as he pulled back from me, looking down into my eyes.46

“Okay,” I said, feeling it was the right thing to do. If anything, Devin is right that I can’t mope around forever.47

Devin’s’ face lit up, and he smiled brightly, making me smile as well. He leaned down, kissing me again before I wrapped my arm around his neck.48

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“Who’s got you so happy?” I turned and saw Tristan standing by my locker with a smirk on his face.50

“What, I can’t be self-sufficient?” He laughed at this.51

“Well last time I saw you, you looked pretty down,” he said shrugging as he broke eye contact with me for a moment, “I’m sorry by the way.”52

“Oh…so now almost 2 months later I get an apology?” I wasn’t buying any of his bullshit.53

“Well, you cheated on me, just because you thought I cheated on you. Two wrongs don’t make a right jasmine,” Tristan said, flipping his hair. It had grown longer, and it swept his shoulders now.54

“Don’t try to school me kay? I’m not 5 years old. And Devin’s got me happy. I should have been with him in the first place, wouldn’t have all of this unnecessary drama.” I knew that hurt him, but I didn’t really care.55

Tristan seemed at a loss for words for a moment, and he rolled his eyes before turning to walk off.56

“Goodbye Jasmine,” Tristan said over his shoulder, before he walked off, “I’m sorry for all the terrible things I’ve caused in your life.”57

“Yea well, I’m sorry for cheating on you,” I said, honestly. Tristan paused, but then continued to walk away.58

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