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Dear self, dear me... I wonder if ten years from now Ill be feeling the same way or if I’d somehow come across this and laugh at how silly I sound... I'm reaching out to someone who, in reality, isn’t around… oh how I wish he were though... I mean life is tough; I'm surprised I've made it through over a year without him. As promises are broken I can’t help but feel the way I do... 2
So, I put on this act right, I pretend that things are going good... I wake up in the morning not wanting to get out of bed, I drag myself out... and tell myself that today will be better... who knows, and maybe one day I’ll be right. 3
I need to become a stronger person, I don't want to depend on love and someone else to help me through, I’ve gone 8 months alone, why is it getting harder? People said it would get easier.. I look into her eyes and just want to cry, cry because I know that she's so innocent, and brought into this world due to immatureness and now her father doesn’t want her? I was always daddy’s little girl, I want the same for her.. what can I do?4
Ahhh enough of all that crap... I mean... there's so much of me out there in the world, but so much of me is not known... and I think I've found the person that can bring down those walls but I wonder if he wants to, I wonder if the only reason he’s talking to me is because he feels sorry.. or I wonder if he really does like me...5
I just want you to give me an answer... and Ill give you a clue, it’s not a yes or no question...6
I'm out7
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i love this... ur are very talented...
Keep up the famtastic work!!!
i hope to try and read more of ur work...
LOve heaps and heaps
Renee xox -
Hun, I have to agree with Daddy; these are questions that've been asked before. I don't know if you'll ever get all the answers to them, and if you do, I don't know when; but I promise you I will help you in all the ways possible. I have always wanted to help you out so much and I still do. I love you dear! Remember that.
You have made me so proud; if you could have seen the look on my face when Daddy told me that you had given birth, you would have known that long ago; I guess I should have said it more often. But I am so proud of you Malorie. So very proud.
Much love
Mom -
Hi Malzy. Lots of questions there grandaughter - and not new ones either. Time is a wonderful thing and can do so much. It can fly by or stretch on seemingly forever. It can hold us back or push us ahead. But, no matter what it does, what is - is! So, we move along with time, and with life. I know you still have lots of questions - but you also have lots of time. No one is more proud of you than grampa - pretty sure of that. Keep hanging in, and time will do its thing.
Grampa Poppy
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