When The Snow Falls

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 To my readers scroll down the page a bit and you'll find chapter 1 When The Snow Falls, then when you finish, scroll up and read the last two remaining chapters of the story 5 -6 Enjoy! 2

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Chapter 6 The Blizzard 4

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It was morning and I was still awake staring out through the window at the snow fall that turned quickly into a stormy blizzard.My brother in law then knock at the door and asked if I was okay I just nodded my head and then he walked over to me and we embraced gently, neither of us spoke a word at that moment.He told me he sat up all night waiting in the emergency room , and then explain the whole accident report to me. He said Ronnie was sitting on the passengers side and was thrown from the car, the door on the passengers side was ripped from the hinges and landed on a grocery store roof. Ronnie was thrown twenty feet from where the accident occurred. The driver his friend called by the same name Ronnie was in serious condition paralyzed from the waist down. The three persons out of the five of them came out with not a bruise on them except for a few scratches.The car was totaled and the report said it was the worst accident in the history of Maine, the car looked like an accordion. It's a wonder how the four other passengers survived the accident it was a miracle for them, but where was my Ronnie. I wanted to see him and I asked the nurse who came into the room, if they would let me see him. She just walked away and my brother in law then told me how bad his injuries were some of his body parts had been decapitated including his head. I began to shake all over again and then was administered another shot to calm me down.The place where the accident accrued was called dead mans curve.I still couldn't believe he was dead because they wouln't let me see him, how could I believe wanted to see for myself. I was released from the hospital and went back to be with my little girl and my in laws. They had already told her daddy went home to heaven to be with Jesus. When I got home she just ran into my arms and said to me, mommy I want my daddy, why mommy can't daddy come home , I want to go see my daddy, will Jesus let me mommy. I felt as though my heart had been crushed how will my baby girl and I go on without her daddy. All I could tell her was that He was with Jesus , that he was happy and one day we will go to be with him but right now Jesus needed us to stay here so we could be together.But one day he would come back and take us home with him, so we can all be together. I felt such and emptiness inside as if my heart had been ripped out.The telephone rang it was my parents they were all ready on there way down with my brother and his wife it was a long drive back then we didn't have the highways like today so they had to take the back roads it would take up to sixteen hours for them to get here because of the blizzard conditions on the roads and allot roads were already being blocked. I was so glad they were coming I needed them to be here with me I needed them to share my pain and grief. God had a plan and purpose. 6

Chapter 7 Good Bye My Love Good Bye 7

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My parents finally arrived at midnight they made it through the blizzard as they came in the door they were covered in snow my mother and father were crying when they saw me and Tammy my baby girl. They walked over to us and we held one another in each others arms.My parents and family love Ronnie very much especially my dad, my dad was the only real father he knew my dad loved him like his own seven sons and seven daughters. The next day we made arrangements for his burial he wouldn't be able be buried then because of the grounds being so frozen they would have to wait until the snow thawed. It would be a closed casket and we arrange for mass at the town church and visiting hours at the funeral home were all arranged. The day we all met at the funeral home it was a sad time I couldn't believe his body laid in that casket I still couldn't believe he was gone .So many friends were there who-came all the way up to Maine from Connecticut to to say good by to Ronnie . We made it through the funeral and mass services. When all was done we went back to my in laws where I could gather me and my baby girls clothes we got everything that I could take with us in the car and we drove off waving good bye to his family, waving good bye to my love. I'm returning home from a long vacation but without you. Good Bye,  Good Bye, my love.
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Chapter 1 When The Snow Falls 11

It was a sunny winter afternoon as I sat relaxing in the parlor watching TV like any normal day, I was in my ninth month pregnancy and my baby was due any day soon. When all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain, oh my God! then my water broke it was time. Trying to get a hold of my husband wasn't easy because he had gone out to look for work. There was no time to look for him I had to get to the hospital being my first pregnancy I was really scared and began to cry because the pains were strong and I didn't want to have my baby in the car. The drive to the hospital seem forever as my friend Gene drove like a manic through red lights and stop signs You would think he was the one having the baby instead of me. My mother walk me into the hospital admissions excited about the baby this would be her second grand child and of course we were hoping for a girl I had all ready chosen a name, if its a girl, Tammy, if a boy he would be named after his father Ronny. Exactly at the stroke of midnight at twelve a.m Tammy arrived into the world on February 14,1970. What a special valentines day gift that was for me and my husband.she weighed in at six pounds eleven ounces and 22 inches long. Three days later my husband Ronnie and I brought our little baby girl home. I didn't go back to work, she was to little, and I didn't want to leave her with anyone. I felt it was my job to take of her. 12

Here were were now with our first baby, I can remember back when my husband and I got married it was fast because I got pregnant and back in those people talked allot. But one sure thing I was deeply in love with him he was my first love the moment I met him I knew in my heart he would be the one for me. I'll never forget the night we eloped it was so funny, because it was the time when we wore patched jeans, long dresses, and bandannas around our head. It was the hippie movement back when rock and roll was at it's peak. My husband and I on the eve we married were driving home in our car to celebrate the occasion we bumped into some hippie folks like ourselves they were waving at us and they notice the sign on our car Just Married. We stop and they shook hands with us and pass us a track that said in bold letters Jesus Saves. I didn't give much thought then but years later those words would take there course. God had a plan13

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Chapter 2 Time For Change 15

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Two years had passed it was in the winter of 1972 we decided to move north to Maine .We moved to a small town in Vanburen Maine it was quite a different for me who was so used to the city. My in laws did't like me and I sensed it very much. It hurt me but there was nothing I could do. They were a big family just as my family had been. I thought I'd be welcome with open arms but they were cold to me. Somehow they got the impression that city folks were rich and stuck up, this was told by one of my younger sister-laws though she was a child she seem to have at least sense to know I was doing my best to be friendly and kind to them in spite of how they treated me. I wanted to go back home and I hated it there. A couple of months later I met a friend her name was Joyce and she was always there for me, she knew what I was going through, because she moved to Ct. a couple of years before and then moved back to Maine. she missed her home just as I did. Funny because she was an ex girlfriend of my husbands during his high school years. She was married with two children of her own we hit it off really well and my husband was best friends with her husband though we both had allot of friends in CT. One night my husband and I had just finish supper my husband decided to go lay down for awhile while I helped his sister with the supper dishes.We hadn't found a place of our own yet but the next morning he would start a new job, I couldn't wait. I got in bed that evening and my mother in law came into our room like a maniac and started shaking the whole bed up and down off the floor I was scared, and I had ask my husband why, she was doing this he said that because she always blamed him for his little sisters death. She had been drinking and was in a fit of rage. I had asked how she died and he told me she had drowned and he was suppose to be taking care of her. By the time he notice her missing it had been to late her body had been in the water all that afternoon what happen was that her bathing suit got caught into some branches sticking out near the edge of the water, she was right there but no one thought of even looking there because the last time everyone saw her she was in the middle of the water. She was only eight years old when she drowned my husband was a child himself, a young boy just eleven years old. As he told me the story I could hear the hurt in his voice and I saw the sorrow in his eyes. Many times he tried to tell me but didn't. I had remembered him at times, he would just lay in bed with tears in his eyes and I would ask him why, he was crying but he never said a word. Because he blamed himself and ran away from home and live on the streets after that happen and so to speak became a survivor, His real Father had been killed in a truck accident when he was just a baby he never knew him and his step father and mother blamed him for the death of his twin sister. But even after all that had happened he wanted to be here in Vanburean Maine. God had a purpose and a plan.17

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Chapter 3 A Restless Night19

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A few months had pass by and Ronnie was working steady and we were able to get a trailer soon to move into, I was really excited I couldn't wait to get away from his mother. It was Tammy second birthday she had grown so fast she could talk up a storm and she always was into some kind of mischief but somehow seem to always get around us. She knew how to get our attention, she was are little angel, no matter what she did. All she had to do is look up with those sweet big brown eyes, as if to say look how cute I am, how could we be mad. Early the following morning while it was still dark outside my husband was up pasting the floors and looking out the windows. The night before he was so quite, he hardly spoke a word to me that whole evening. I kind of sensed something was wrong as if I was going to lose him, as if he were going to leave me I just didn't know how but that feeling was strong I had slept so close to him that night , like I never had before, I didn't want him to leave my side. It was time for him to go work he hated driving with a buddy of his and said he was afraid of his driving, he was thinking about taking the day off, but he couldn't because he promised to meet with a friend who was going to rent us a trailer. I had ask him why he was up so early and he said he had a hard time sleeping. It was time for him to leave for work I waved him goodbye that morning, until I couldn't see the car anymore, because of the snow banks being so high. The snow banks were at least seven feet high along the roads they seem as mountains looking through the window from where I stood. It was still dark outside, and the snow look so pretty and the stars above seem to have a glow like never before I just stood there in the moment taking the lovely view in. Back in Ct. the snow was already melting the climate there was different then here we had just lived five minutes from the border of Northern Canada, no wonder why it's so cold. God had a plan. 21

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Chapter 4   Where's My Daddy 23

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The day seem to fly by quickly and I notice it was past five where was Ronnie, then I had remember he was going right from work to look into the trailer one of his friends had for rent. I was really excited and couldn't wait to hear if we got it or not . I couldn't wait to be out of here I was about at the end of my rope. My only escape was to retrieve to the bedroom where I did'nt have to look at my mother in-laws stony face. I know she couldn't wait to get rid of me and she wasted no time letting me know. I got dirty looks all day from her after all I was the rich girl from CT. I found that kind of amusing so I'd laugh about that one pretty much, I thought to myself hm lady if I were rich I certainly would't be here with the likes of you. It was getting late and Ron still wasn't home yet, I had just given Tammy her supper and she was already calling out for her daddy,making her cute pouty face. I tell her daddy will be home soon. It was getting kind of late may be he stopped at one of the bars for beer with his friends, after all he hadn't seen his friends in quite a while I thought to myself he deserves it, he worked all day and just wants a little time with his old friends, but he should at least called me. I decided to take a walk and didn't ask if anyone wanted to join me, I wanted to be alone I would ask Joanna my sister in law to come along with me but she didn't like me my husband told when I had first met her she was just jealous of me. She was engaged to be married to a polite and quite handsome guy and she shouldn't be jealous of me. I'm married to her brother,what is wrong with her, besides even if I weren't married I wouldn't be with him, he would of never been my type. Ronnie was very handsome as well all my friends would ask me how did I ever get so lucky they said he look like Elvis and he truly did except for the eyes they were deep dark brown, he was quite the looker I asked Ronnie's sister Nola if she would keep an eye on Tammy for me and she said she would. As I was walking down the street all kinds of thoughts went through my mind it was late and I was beginning to weary where could he be. I bumped into one of his friends who had the same name as Ron we said hello and he asked me if I would like to meet his wife, they just lived across the street from where I was walking, my husband and I were invited to visit them when we had first arrived in Vanburean. Just then a women came out of the grocery store that was just next door over to them and she waved at us and Ron said this is my wife Charlene and she invited me to come join her for a cup tea and I did. She was very nice and we got along great. She was very pretty, long dark hair ,and a warm and friendly smile which made me feel at home.We chatted about everything from her high school years and how her and her husband knew Ronnie they even took out there family album sharing there wedding day pictures with me. We shared at lot in common and come to find out she knew my friend Joyce. At least I was finally making new friends though I missed CT very much and my family. But here I am and I better get use to it, I suppose things always seem to get worst before they get better. Looking at the clock on the wall it was already pass nine I decided to call my mother in-laws house to let them know where I was just case Ronnie got home so he wouldn't worry about me. I stayed for another hour and no one called me to let me know if Ronnie was home yet. Grabbing my purse on the table I started for the door and they said they would walk me home it was already pass ten and I needed to get home to Tammy,Just as we were walking out the door a car drove by real fast and all of a sudden slowed and backed up to where we were standing on the side walk. It was Ronnie with four other guys and his other friend Ron the driver yelling and screaming the music blaring.They were all pretty looped and I was pretty angry by now and I let him have it. I must have called him every name in the book. One of his friends yelled out bring your wife with us and I said I don't think so and started walking up the street angry like a bat on a hill. All of a sudden all I heard was I'll be home later from my husband and the car made a screeched as it disappeared heading around the corner towards the Border of New Brunswick Canada. I was very upset and as Charlene and her husband stood by me they new I was pretty anger and upset I wanted him to come home with me. I apologised for my out burst of angry and they said they understood and for me not to worry about that.They walked me home and we said good night and ran in the house to get out of the cold Tammy was already tucked in, and out like a light but as soon as I began to leave the room she woke and started crying and I picked her up from her crib and held her in my arms,looking up into my face she asked where's my daddy and I told her he'll be home soon and rocked her in my arms until she fell back to sleep. God had a plan 25

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I sat down with my brother in the living room and I was pretty much still upset because it was already after twelve midnight we talked and he tried to reassure me that Ronnie would be home soon. All of a sudden we saw head lights through the window then we turned the outside lights on to see who it was by the time we got to the door there were three police cruises with flashing lights.Two police men got out of their cars and walked slowly toward us and ask if we new a Ronald Martin and I said yes He's my husband and likewise my brother said he's my brother.Just then the whole family got up out of bed to see what the commotion was all about. The officer explain there had been and accident and my husband was dead they needed someone to come down to the hospital to identify the body. I didn't say a word I just stood there shaking in disbelief at what I heard I was in a state of shock trembling I asked if I could see him but the police said his body was beyond recognition that I wouldn't want to see him that way. They pass his wallet to me with all his identification in it. The shaking wouldn't stop and my heart was racing. My in-laws were all crying and the police had suggested someone take me to the hospital they saw I was really shaken and very much in a state of shock they recommended that I see a doctor. My brother in law Father in law and mother in law drove to the hospital silently with me,the ride seemed forever. When we got there we enter the emergency room doctors and nursing were running everywhere . I asked right away can I please see my husband and she ask me who he was I explain that he was my husband and I was told he was here . She walked away from us and a priest and two nuns came-to talk to us. The priest asked me my name but I kept staring at the door that led to the patients rooms. I started walking to the door where I knew Ronnie was but the nurses held me back as I fell to my knees crying. Please let me see my husband, please let me see him I kept begging. They then led me to a private room and the nurse came in to administer a shot to me.I stared at the needle in her hand as she spoke softly to me this will help calm you down a little bit.The priest stayed and talk to me comforting me that Ronnie was now in God's hands and he would take care him and see me through.I was to numb to speak his words seemed so far away as if all was a dream.The priest stood over my bed ministering prayer for me and my daughter that God would give us strength and would comfort me. He then left me to myself. Alone that night in the room all I could hear was the sound of the wind howling. I laid there thinking about are whole life together but still couldn't believe he was gone.I began to think about God how powerful he was, though at the time I didn't know this great powerful God. I sensed somehow he was with me, His voice seemed to be in the wind, I felt a strange presence surround me, a power that I never felt before in my life , the reality of God struck me ,that God was real,But where was my Ronnie. God had a plan and purpose. 27

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