Death vs Love Part 2

As I made my way to Alex's house, crossing the street -tears pouring down my face- headlights flashed before me.
I looked up startled and before I could move one inch a car smashed into my trembling body.
I lay on the ground, unmoving and probably not breathing too.
I tried to speak, to scream for help but nothing came out.
Was I dead?
All this time I wanted to die and now I suddenly change my mind.
And now as I lay on this cold, stone road, frozen to the core I start to realize that life is worth living.
Although I may not have the best family and don't have that much money, I still have one great thing in my life; Alex.1

Alex isn't really my boyfriend, he's my best friend, but i've always had feelings for him, but I've never had the courage to tell him how I feel about him.
I wish he was more than a friend and I have a feeling that he wishes it too.
But we're both too shy to admit anything.
We've known each other since kindergarten and we've never fallen apart since.
I love him in every way possible but two parts of my mind are telling me to do two things different.
One's telling me to confess my love for him and the other's telling me to shut up and hind my feelings to avoid getting hurt.2

I think of only one thing as I lye on the pavement and that one thing is my life.
Alex.3


I had planned to tell him I loved him, but I guess faith was trying to tell me something and sent that driver to knock me down.
Maybe this is supposed to happen, maybe I'm supposed to die.
I try will all my energy to open my eyes, to fight against god.
But as usual god wins.
As the seconds passed my consciousness slipped away.
My breathing picked up and then slowed and my heart was barely beating.
I was dead.
I was sure.
Who would care anyways.
If Alex cared for me my death would hurt him, but I don't know if he did care for me more than anything in the world like I did for him...4


In my head I can hear a beeping noise.
It's loud and sharp and repeats every second second.
Beep, beep, beep, beep.
It gets slower and slower and eventually stops.
"One, two, three," Someone says as something presses on my chest.
"Clear!" someone yells as a shock jolts through my body.
Minutes later it's all over, I can hear voices, some familiar some from strangers.
One voice draws me into listening to the voice.
Alex's voice.
"What do you mean she might not recover...she has to recover!" Alex's voice sounded upset.
"I'm sorry, her body's just not operating the right way, she's lost a lot of blood and her organs are very weak," a woman's voice said.
It was silent for a very long time.
I considered they had left the room.5

Why wasn't I waking up?
This was probably what a coma was.
Being fully awake when your actual body was unconscious.
I tried with all my force to open my eyes, but they didn't budge.
"Am's you gotta wake up...please, please wake up," I heard Alex beg.
My eyes fluttered.
I hear him sigh in relief.
"Amy can you hear me?" he asked.
I moaned and my eyes flew open.
"Alex" I murmured smiling.
"I'm here babe, i'm here," he whispered in relief.6

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