I can't quite remember what was going on in my head as you hovered over me, eyes asking if I wanted more. I was entraced by your devotion, by your love, and I couldn't get enough of you.1
In my head, I had always planned my first time to be magical and meaningful, and well, perfect. But as most plans go, this one was not in the least perfect. I don't mean that harshly, my love. But how can a girl's first time simply go perfect. There is pain involved, pain which i hadn't readied myself for.2
I'm getting ahead of myself...let me start at the beginning.3
We were laying in my futon-bed at a quarter to one. I remember the time exactly because it was only a short while after we had come home from Kylee's halloween party. After a few mused kisses, your hands began to explore my body. Somehow they found their way underneath my pajama shirt and to my bare breasts. The coldness of your skin shocked mine and made my nipples harden. 4
My mind was racing. You had never touched me like this before. There had never been anything between us but mere kisses. I was shocked, confused and...throughly enjoying it.5
I'm not sure what happened next....all i remember was a sharp pain throbbing through my body. I cried out in pain, not loudly, but enough to make you stop and stare at me.6
"Do you want me to stop?"7
"No, no, go on..." i half-mumbled afraid my voice would give me away. Secretly inside I was screaming "STOP STOP IT HURTS" but my pride got the better of me, and i let you continue.8
I guess you didn't believe me, because you pulled yourself out of me, and looked deeply into my green eyes. "I won't do this unless you want me to" you said, your eyes filled with passion and desire.9
"I, I , don't know..." i stammered...What was a girl supposed to say to that?!10
That was all you needed to know. You quickly got up and went to the bathroom where you flushed all evidence of the situation. Then you wrapped your arms around me, and held me close to you. "I'll never do anything you don't want me to. Remember that."11
And I have....12
Author notes
This is what I wrote for a contest...about my first time with Thomas...this is true, and the way he was so gentle was the best...i love him dearly...
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Wonderful
This was SO WELL WRITTEN!! There's a beautiful mix of maturity and innocence here. Great flow and sense of continuity. It was soft, yet engaging - and perfectly complete, although short. WOW!!!
Thankyou for this awesome write!!! Coming from a tender place of real experience too!!
.................................Lionslove 
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Reminds me, a bit, of my first time. My boyfriend was so gentle and patient and caring... I am happy for you that even though your first time wasn't the definition of perfect (you're right... how can the first time be perfect with that much pain? ) it was full of love.
Thank you for the kind comments on 'Backstage.' (I always fall for the nerds too.
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Elizabeth
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Excellent
Wow, that was a sweet guy. Nice story. I hope that you will continue writing and have a wonderful day! -
sweet story
Awwww I appreciate this story, it was well written, and sounds very truthful, and Thomas sounds like a very nice and trusting guy, nice work here , and thank you for entering my contest.
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awsome and memerable
i love you baby, and i still do no matter what. you mean the world to me and, i never want to lose it. that night was spical to me. im sorry that i hurt you. but most of all i loved being able to hold you next to what now and always be your hart. i love you, and the loved you showed me...
from the only one who could and alwayslove the most... your thomas quimby, "cubby"
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Wow, this is so sweet and heartfelt. The love you have for this person is evident. This is a really great story...and though your first time may not have been "perfect" it sounds like it was crucial because it showed you how much he cared about you and didn't want to hurt you. That is so important to know BEFORE you have sex, so it's great to hear that he showed you that during that moment. Anyway, great job on this!!
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