Uh oh. I did something stupid and bad.1
Oh my god, my friends are going to be mad.2
Should I tell them or should I lie?3
I don’t want to hurt them or make them cry.4
Too many tears have already been shed.5
Too much blood has already been bled.6
Searching my room, looking for a pill to pop.7
Holy shit, Rose, just shut up and stop.8
Okay, I think I have a little self control.9
Yes! Two days without drugs! I’m on a roll.10
Walk into the kitchen and I spot a knife.11
Images flashing about ending my life.12
Woah! Calm down! It’s going to be okay.13
Here I go, all my emotions are on display.14
Oh, a piece of rope, what can I do with it?15
Listening to words that my haters spit.16
Now I’m wrapping it around my neck.17
Am I a somebody? I’ll go check.18
Wait. What am I doing? I can’t do this.19
Because I know that some people will miss20
The fact that I’m gone and won’t be around.21
Fall screaming and crying onto the ground.22
God! I just want the madness to end.23
Heal my wounded soul and help me mend.24
I’m trying, can’t you see? I’m trying to heal.25
With all of my issues, I’m trying to deal.26
Okay, Rose you just need to calm down.27
I need to learn to swim so that I won’t drown.28
Knelt by my bed, hung my head and prayed.29
Stepping into the bathroom, I see a razor blade.30
I just stare at it for a few minutes and then shake my head.31
No, not today, I’m not ending up dead.32
I look away but I can feel my hand move.33
I can’t do that, my friends wouldn’t approve.34
Walk out of there and back into my room.35
I feel like I’m walking into a tomb.36
Out the corner of my eye, I can see my gun.37
No, I will not be undone.38
I feel my hand move on its own accord.39
My brain yells “Stop!” but it’s being ignored.40
But wait there’s another way out.41
Come on, you can find another route.42
But still, I press the metal to my head.43
Feels like my sanity is hanging by a thread.44
No! I can’t do this! I can’t hurt the ones that I love.45
I have to push back when push comes to shove.46
Put the gun down and give a sigh of relief.47
There are other ways I can handle my grief.48
Please, my friends, understand that I’m trying.49
I’m sick of my pain and these thought about dying.50
Give me a second chance, that’s all I ask.51
Even though for some, that might be a hard task.52
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this is soo deep. i love the way its written. once goddammit i can relate to your writing so well. its kinda scary. and my favorite line is "i have to push back when push comes to shove" you better believe im gonna read this to someone. its so good. and if its true, im glad that you chose to take a different route. and thanks for putting it on display. that takes alot of guts.
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Wow very heartfelt, and theres so much raw emotion in this. This has great flow and rhyme and it's very honest and true. Great Write.
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I love the flow of this poem, very cool.
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Thanks for your comment. I appreciate it
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Excellent
Hope you continue to use writing to exorcise the demons. I admire the flow, the meter and rhyme. Well done!
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Reach out to God!
Reach out to Jesus!
He helped me when I thought I could not be helped.
He helped my defeat drinking vodka.
I didn't think that I could ever stop drinking.
But with his help, I did.
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O.k Rose., this is going to make me sound mean, but if your weak enough to let the pain get to you, I won't stop you. Stop with the self pitty and tell us whats on your mind
beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, characters: 5.
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Sounds like you have loads of friends to help you through the bad thoughts.
very emo poem, hang in there and a few years from now you will look back at this poem with total embarrasment
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I thought this was a very moving poem filled with emotion, pain and angst. I can remember feeling much like this at some points in my life. I think the fact you write about it and ask for help shows there is hope you will get through whatever it is (I am no expert) if the thoughts expressed or true. I would like to say I will help, but I have no idea what I could do to help. I guess if it really gets that bad find someone to talk to A nice poem
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Rose let me help u this poem hit me and this poem makes me worry about u but the poem was great and hit me in the heart
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How can you help me?
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The poem itself was beautiful, Rose. Truly beautiful, and it strikes home for a lot of people, myself included.
As you say in your poem, you're trying. And that counts for SO much, if only you'd see it. Keep at it, and you'll realise the trying isn't so hard anymore. I promise.
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Man i love the poetry and the emotions in it, you did a really really good job. I hate to be the first to say it but theres always someone, but i can really connect to it, i've had thoughts about it myself and this really strikes deep.
Again thanks for writing the poem so delicately, it really puts a shining light on a grim subject -
...bittersweet....
i tots agree w/ Silver-Tongue,
heres a song i think u might like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCon0QojjYA&feature=player_embedded
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well done. very emotional and connected to you personally. im proud of you rose.
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It was a well written poem, but Rose don't give up. Death isn't the answer, be strong. Love ya!
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Nothing i can really say on this...
As poetry, it was beautiful, and it all resounded with me... As for the content... Why do you need everyone else to give you a second chance? It is you, who must give you a second chance.
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