Things I've Learned In Life So Far

My name is Alex, I live in Waterville Maine, I am fifteen, and a sophomore. My parents are divorced, they have been since I was ten, they were separated a couple years before that. My mom found another man and now they are fiancés, they will get married when Josh and I graduate. My dad had several relationships after my mom none of them lasted though; mom says he’s a hard man to live with. Josh is my brother he’s thirteen and he’s a troublemaker. He constantly wants attention. He tries to hurt me all the time. To my grandparents, aunts, uncles, and my dad he’s the favorite I know he is. Frank is my stepfather; he’s more like my dad than my real dad. I love all of my family. My best friends are Sarah and Megan. Sarah and I became friends last year toward the end of swimming then we started to hangout a lot. Megan and I just became friends this year because she moved here from a different town. Megan and I actually met in when we were littler my moms mom and stepfather lived down the road from her. It’s weird isn’t it?  1

About a year ago my grandmother and step grandfather got in a fight and he hit her. This had happened several years back and she took him back; this time she did the same so it will probably happen again. What I’ve learned from this is that no matter how much you love someone when they hurt you physically and mean to you need to let them go.2

I’ve learned a lot from my dad as to how I don’t want to be. My dad isn’t the best man in the world he isn’t the worst either, but I guess he tries to do his best.  I learned I want to be a reliable parent and I want to make good decisions so I don’t turn out like my dad.3

My dad told me my Meme was sick and it worried me deeply. Her mom died form cancer of the lung, I believe, from smoking. My Meme has emphzema and she smokes and I’m worried that she will die the same long painful death. I remember my little Meme’s funeral I didn’t think it was ok to cry until I saw my cousin doing so, and then I just let it go. I cried and hugged my dad for comfort, I think he cried too. My Meme used to cook such good food all the time and I would watch and from watching I picked up a few things. She also used to clean a lot and so I picked up how to make a bed really neatly, not that I ever make my bed. She also taught me how to play rummy, now one of my favorite card games. I love my Meme.4

When I was five or six I was molested and I can talk about it now I couldn’t before, I mean I can’t go into detail yet, but I'm getting there. It took me until the age of twelve to come out with it so I had to see him just about everyday until I told someone. Now I don’t have to deal with him anymore. Some people are pigs and they need serious help like Hank. I guess what I learned from this is that there are some nasty people out there, they could be anywhere and anyone, a family friend, that’s what Hank was he would baby sit my brother and I when we were little, bunny CREEP!5

Megan introduced me to her neighbor her name is Ally. Megan’s really close to her and I started becoming friends with her. Ally is dieing we all just found out her organs are failing on her and we don’t know why. She doesn’t want to go to the hospital because she doesn’t want to be locked up for being suicidal. Keith, her ex lover, left her for his ex that treats him like crap; Ally is really upset about him leaving. Megan and I were in the car with her and this song came on and I guess it reminded her of him and she started to cry. It was so sad. From watching her actions and how she handled things I learned everybody handles things differently but everyone gets sad and having a broken heart is the worst, sorest feeling in the world it feels worse than dieing.6

A few years ago I got close to his elderly lady her name was Felicity she became a good friend and then she passed away. It seemed like there was a lot of deaths that year my great grandmother, my cat, then Felicity. I learned some things from Felicity, I learned that even when your sick live life to the fullest and keep a smile on your face always, even if you are not happy, you’ll make someone else happy and in the long run you’ll be happy because you made all the other people happy, so a smile goes a long way. Around the world then back to you. There will be someone that will make you smile and they will smile too.7

I think I found that person that makes me smile and I make smile too his name is Justin I met him through Megan.  He’s really funny and I like him. I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately and it’s nice because it makes me smile.  I was stressed for a month or so before I met him and he got me out of the stress, which I really needed because I had already lost nine pounds and I didn’t do anything differently, but since I’ve been talking to him every worry just goes away. Every thought that causes dismay has gone away, and hopefully hiding forever. My heart beats so fast when I talk to him and it’s so hard to say good-bye to him. I really like him. Megan likes this guy, Nick and she thinks she has no chance what so ever, but I keep telling her she doesn’t know that.8

My best friend used to be Michelle now she’s getting into drugs and stuff. She doesn’t really want anything to do with me. She was dating this guy, Jake, and they were really happy. She lost her virginity to him and shortly after they became enemies. They broke up and she moved on quick and started dating this guy, Sean, and they had sex, then he dumped her and now they are enemies. I learned from her that having sex too soon when your young and your not really sure how long you’ll be with that person it will turn everything around, you will no longer be happy and you wont have that person to care for you. Also just because some things go wrong and you get used you shouldn’t stop your life or ruin it.9

I learned a lot from all sorts of people coming and going out of my life. People I will always remember, though some I would like to forget. All sorts of different people taught me different things whether they meant to or not. I am different than other people I’m not afraid to express myself. I don’t wear any masks like the rest of society I’m happy being me. All the people that have been in my life have made an impact on the way I’m turning out and I want to thank them for helping create my wonderful personality. My name is Alex and I will always be me, I will always be free.10