Love Is The Movement 6

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Eric ~* 3

“It’s okay,” he said, kissing me again softly, smiling as I moaned faintly, pushing my body against his.4

He pulled away from me, stepping back from the tree carefully, before extending his hand out to help me down as well.5

“So back to school,” I said, sighing as I looked up at James. He shrugged, turning as he stared back into my eyes.6

“I guess. I don’t really want to go, but I’m not much of a skipper,” he said, smiling slightly. I laughed, nodding my head.7

“Me neither.”8

James ~*9

I still had 3 periods to go and my erection wasn’t getting any better. I just couldn’t stop thinking about his body pressed against mine, or how soft his lips were. Especially those noises he made when I kissed him…oh fuck…10

I fidgeted in my seat, uncrossing and crossing my legs again, as I tried to pay attention to what the teacher was saying. She was going on about postulates and theorems and a bunch of shit that I didn’t really give two fucks about.11

Maybe we shouldn’t of come back to school, imagine what we’d have done if we didn’t?12

An image of Eric naked, head tossed back in ecstasy, clutching onto me flashed through my mind before I could stop it, and I actually groaned out loud, earning me some questionable looks. Shit.13

“Can I use the bathroom?” Ms. Evans turned, nodding before she returned to the lesson that she was teaching.14

I excused myself, heading into the bathroom as I locked the stall, running my hands through my hair nervously.15

“James?” My head shot up at the sound of Eric’s voice, and I unlocked the door, looking around.16

“Hey,” he whispered when I saw him, biting my lip as he smiled at me shyly.17

“Hi,” I smiled, trying to ignore the girlish butterflies in my stomach.18

“I couldn’t stop thinking about you,” he said sheepishly, looking away down, “I couldn’t even focus in class.”19

“Me neither,” I said, biting my lip as I took a step closer to him, “can I kiss you?”20

“Of course,” he said, smiling as he wrapped his arms around my neck, “it’s all I’ve been thinking about for the past hour.”21

I leaned forward, pressing my lips against his, pulling him in as close to me as I could.22

He slowly trailed one of his hands down my chest, stopping and tucking his hand in my waistband, tickling me softly.23

He slowly pushed his hand further inside, teasing the base of my erection lightly with his fingertips.24

“O-oh,” I moaned, leaning back against one of the sinks, my head hitting the mirror.25

“You like that?” The tone of his voice was innocent yet seductive, confusing the shit out of me and arousing me more nonetheless.26

“That feels so good,” I moaned as softly as I could as he stroked a bit harder. 27

Eric moved closer to me, the pressure of his fingers increasing as his lips pressed against mine again, making me unable to control the lengthy moan that poured out of me.28

He giggled softly against my lips, moaning as well when I bit his lip lightly. 29

I heard the bathroom door open, and Eric pulled his hand out of my pants and moved over to another sink as quickly as he could, and I turned around as well, not wanting whoever it was to see my ridiculous erection.30

It was Paul, one of those stupid football players with a huge ego to compensate for the fact that he has a small dick.31

He spotted me before going into the stall and came over with a smirk on his face.32

“Hey fag. You tryna get the new kid to suck your dick? Though, he looks like he wouldn’t have a problem with it,” he said, snorting before leaving. 33

“What a douche,” Eric said, turning to me, trying to lighten the mood.34

“Yea, he’s an ass,” I said, running my hands under the cold water, “I should get back to class. So should you. I’ll see you after school?”35

“Yea, sure,” he said, forcing a smile, “you okay?”36

“Yea, fine. I’m just sick of bullshit.”37

At least my boner’s gone.38

Eric ~*39

School was finally over, and I couldn’t stop thinking about James. Even though he was acting kind of weird after that kid came into the bathroom, I’m sure he’d forget about it now.40

“Hey, you know where James is?” Kyle turned to me slowly, smile in place as always.41

“What? Oh…uh…no. I think he left…maybe not…I don’t know man,” he said laughing, “sorry. I’m high as shit and I can’t think right now.”42

“It’s okay,” I said, forcing a smile as I walked off in search of him.43

I decided to look for Emily, since she’d probably either know where James was or be looking for him as well. This school is too big.44

“Hey! You looking for James too?” Emily turned, shaking her head before walking off. That wasn’t helpful.45

I spotted him though, leaning against a locker with his headphones in, observing the world as if he wasn’t a part of it.46

I walked over to him, slightly nervous about bothering him because he looked so…focused.47

“Hey,” I smiled; watching as he slowly took out his headphones before turning to look at me.48

“Hey,” he responded flatly, “you coming to the mall today?49

“I guess,” I shrugged, “I kind of wanted to spend some time with you though,” I said timidly, “if you don’t mind.”50

He shrugged, slightly hurting my feelings by brushing off my sincerity, “I don’t know, I should probably spend some time with Emily and them before they start to think that I’m ditching them for you. But we’ll all be together, it’ll be fine.”51

“Well…okay,” I said softly, not wanting to get into an argument, and frankly not having the guts to do so.52

James ~*53

I felt bad being so mean to Eric, and the truth was it probably hurt me more than it hurt him. But it’s his first year, and I don’t want him to be known as a cocksucker, or any of the other disgusting things I’m known as, just because I made one fucking mistake and fell for the wrong person.54

And he’s vulnerable, and I know that the things they say will hurt him, and I don’t want him hurt.55

I sighed as I watched him walk away, painfully resisting the urge to pull him into me and tell him how I really felt.56

“Hey!” I turned, my thoughts interrupted as I looked at Emily, who was smiling happily at me for once.57

“Hey baby,” I said, kissing her quickly, praying that Eric didn’t see, she grinned hugging me tightly.58

“Come outside with me,” she said smiling as she grabbed my hand, interlocking her fingers with mine. I sighed, trying to make it sound playful, but I really didn’t want to go outside with her.59

We walked, around the trees and to ‘our spot’, which was a clearing in-between, but you had to go past the dumpsters, which most people didn’t bother to do.60

“I love you,” she said, biting her lip as she looked up at me before she kissed me, pushing me down and climbing on top of me.61

“I…I can’t,” I whispered, getting up after I moved her off of me, “I’m sorry Emily. I can’t do this again.”62

Eric ~*63

I walked alongside Devin as we walked through the mall, since James was acting weird, and so was Emily. I couldn’t help but wonder if something had gone on between them, and I felt a nauseous feeling make its way into my stomach.64

“Do you know what’s going on between them?” Devin turned to me, a look of genuine confusion on his face before I nodded over to James and Emily, who were walking next to each other like they had sticks up their asses.65

“I don’t know. They were supposedly going out again, but apparently not, do you see how they’re walking? That’s the post breakup awkward ‘let’s try to pretend we never got back together’ walk,” he said looking at me sympathetically.66

“Oh,” I said, trying to hide my sadness, and feeling like I was about to cry, “I um…I have to go to the bathroom. I’ll catch up with you guys later.”67

“You want me to come with you? You might get lost,” Devin offered, looking at me with concern.68

“Uh…if you want,” I said stupidly. I should have said no, because I don’t want Devin see me cry.69

“Okay,” he said, smiling, “it’s this way, so come on.”70

I followed him, and when I looked by, James was looking at me longingly, sending a shudder throughout my body. If I didn’t go with Devin, maybe James and I could have actually talked. Fuck, I’m stupid.71

As soon as we got into the bathroom, Devin pushed me into one of the stalls, locking it behind him as he looked down at me.72

“W-what are you doing?” Devin smiled at me, moving his hands off of me as he moved back, leaning against the back of the stall.73

“Nothing, I’m just wondering what’s going on between you and James,” he said raising an eyebrow, “and I think you’re going to tell me, otherwise you’re not leaving.”74

“Well,” I said, nervous because he looked completely serious, “we hooked up two times, that’s it.”75

“Uh huh…so,” he said, pausing, flipping his hair, “do you want to be with him?”76

“What the hell is this? Dr. Phil? Let me out,” I said, reaching for the stall door, but Devin pulled me back, using his weight to keep me from getting out.77

“Stop,” he said, turning me around. I felt my eyes widen when I realized how close he was to me, and I felt slightly compelled to kiss him.78

“Why are you looking at me like that?” Devin was actually looking at me like he wanted to devour me. Oh God, I hope he’s not gonna pull some twilight shit.79

“What? Sorry,” he said, backing away from me, “so do you want to be with him? Answer my question.”80

“Well I don’t know,” I said shrugging, “there’s the whole thing with Emily…and I don’t want to get hurt.”81

“Well, you can’t fall in love without getting hurt,” Devin said, looking at me sincerely, “and I mean that in the most realistic way.”82

“I know,” I said softly, turning away from him, “I’ve just been hurt so many times before. And I’m sick of people lying to me just to make me fall so hard for something that’s not real.”83

“I’ve never been hurt before,” Devin blurted out after we had been standing in silence for what felt like hours. It wasn’t an awkward one though, which I was thankful for.84

“Really? You’re lucky then,” I said looking at him, “it sucks.”85

“Yea, I guess,” he said, shrugging, “but I’ve never been hurt because I’ve never fallen in love before.”86

“Well…that sucks too I guess,” I said smiling, “love…in the simplest terms, love is complicated.”87

“Yea,” he said, “so you wanna go back? I know you didn’t actually have to use the bathroom.”88

“Yea,” I said, laughing, “sure.”89

James ~*90

I can’t believe this. 91

Eric and Devin just walked off together. What the fuck?92

“Where did they go? Kyle,” I said, nudging him, he turned, with his stupid smile in place as always, “where did Eric and Devin go?”93

I couldn’t help but look at Eric as they walked away, and he turned, our eyes connecting for a mere moment before he continued on with Devin. God, I wanted to scream.94

“Huh? Hell if I know,” he said shrugging, making something snap inside of me.95

“Why don’t you quit the fucking drugs and maybe you’d know something for once in your mother fucking life!” Kyle’s mouth opened, and closed, his smile fading.96

“You know…you,” he started, lowering his voice, “you’re the only fucking person who knows why I use as much as I do.”97

“There are other ways,” I said, feeling bad now that I remembered. Kyle only used because he didn’t want to think about anything else, that kid has a messed up life.98

“No,” Kyle snapped, “not for me. There aren’t any other ways for me because I’m a fucking junior, and I have shit grades. I’m not going anywhere with my life, so what else am I supposed to do? Sit around at actually deal with the shit that happens, when I could just ignore it?”99

“Yes, because Kyle, you can’t ignore the world, you live in it,” I said looking up at him. He rolled his eyes.100

“Fuck you, why don’t you go chase after Eric, who clearly wants Devin. You’re so fucking pathetic, I’m high all the time and I can fucking see it,” Kyle said viciously.101

That hurt.102

“Fuck you,” I said, unable to control the shakiness of my voice from the tears I felt coming.103

“Oh what, now you’re gonna cry? Fuck you man, you’re pathetic,” he said, looking away from me.104

“F-fuck you,” I said, sniffling as I walked away. I just needed to get away from him, from everyone.105

I needed to be alone.106

Eric ~*107

As Devin and I were walking back from the bathroom, I saw Emily and Kyle walking, but James wasn’t with them, and I looked around, and saw him walking away quickly.108

“I’ll catch up with you later okay?” Devin nodded, walking over to Kyle and Emily as I ran towards James, trying to catch up with him.109

“James! Wait,” I called out, he stopped, turning to look at me before he kept on walking, and I ran faster, well as fast I could through a crowded mall.110

“James! Wait, why aren’t you waiting?” James turned as I put my hand on his shoulder, and I saw the tears streaming down his face.111

“James…baby what’s wrong? Don’t cry,” I said, kissing him, not giving a fuck who saw or what they thought.112

James pulled away from me, pushing me off of him, as he continued to walk, sniffling.113

“James, just stop okay? What’s wrong? Tell me,” I said, pulling him over to the closest exit.114

“Leave me alone,” he said softly through his tears, “I’m so fucking stupid.”115

“What are you talking about?” 116

“You never wanted me…you wanted Devin the whole time. How could I have been so stupid? All the signs were there…I’m so freaking dumb.”117

“What? I don’t want Devin,” I said lifting his head up so his eyes met mine, “I want you. I don’t want anyone else in this entire fucking world more than I want you right now.”118

A smile broke out on his face as he looked up into my eyes, clearly finding that I wasn’t bullshitting him.119

“Really?” I nodded, kissing him. He wrapped an arm around my neck, pulling me closer to him. 120

“Wanna go to my house? No one’s home,” James whispered before he kissed my neck, making me moan softly.121

“Let’s go.”122

James ~*123

I opened the door to my house as quickly as I could without breaking my keys, and once we were inside, I locked the door and lead Eric to my bedroom.124

“Do you want anything?” Eric giggled, sitting down on my bed and taking off his shoes.125

“You,” he said, looking up at me, making me smile.126

“Shut up,” I said laughing; he laughed before pulling me down on top of him and kissing me.127

“Make me,” he said, giggling as he bit his lip.128

“There are so many better things you could use your mouth for, other than talking,” I said raising an eyebrow. When he realized what I meant he opened his mouth in shock and playfully pushed me.129

“You perv,” he said giggling before he kissed me again. He’s so freaking adorable.130

I bit his lip, making him moan as I pulled down the zipper on his sweatshirt, pushing it off of his shoulders.131

Eric wrapped his arms around my neck, pulling me down, completely on top of him, his legs in between mine. 132

I pulled away for a moment, and a shudder went through me when I realized how fucking cute he is, and how badly I wanted to fuck him.133

“Wait,” I said, getting off of him, and sitting on my bed next to him. He got up as well and looking at me, confused.134

“What’s wrong?” I want to fuck the shit out of you, that’s what’s wrong.135

“I don’t want to go too far,” I said, looking over at him, “I mean I do, but I mean, we shouldn’t.”136

“But I want you,” he whispered, kissing my neck softly before resting his head on my shoulder.137

“I want you too,” I said looking down at him, “Eric I want you so badly…but I don’t…well I want an actual relationship with you. I don’t just want all the sexual stuff you know? I want a relationship.”138

“Well…what about Emily? Because I heard you guys were back together,” he responded, moving off of me. Crap.139

“That’s um…that’s complicated,” I said, looking over at him, he rolled his eyes and crossed his arms.140

“What’s so complicated about it? It’s either you’re together or you’re not. And if you are, I’m not going to be your hook up on the side, I always fall too hard and get hurt.”141

“But I’d never hurt you Eric,” I said sincerely; I’d never hurt him, at least not on purpose.142

“That’s what they all said,” he said, getting up and putting his sweater back on, “well if you can’t tell me whether or not you’re in a relationship, I’m going to leave.”143

“Wait! No,” I said, getting up, “me and Emily broke up today. She tried to kiss me after you had come up to me, and I told her I couldn’t. Eric, I’m falling for you.”144

“James…”145

“I am,” I said, grabbing his hand and intertwining my fingers with his, “I’ll do anything to prove to you that I’m not like all those other guys who hurt you.”146

“James, I swear, if you hurt me I’m going to beat you up,” Eric said, smiling weakly at me. 147

“You? Beat me up?” We both laughed at this, and I leaned forward, pushing my lips against his as he clutched my shirt.148

I think I love this kid.149