i cant say no ..

i woke up crying again last night ... i still dont understand why. could be because everything that , nevermind i dont even want to think about that. so i guess i should explaine myself. My name is james, im fifteen and im clinically diagnosed with depression. plus anerexia. i dont talk . i dont have friends . people at school dont even try to make fun of me anymore. they dont even notice im there. neither do my parents. Well they do when they beat me but other then that nothing.
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beep beep beep..... beep beep beep... beep. awhhh fuck the dam alarm . i slap the stupid snooze button. roll off my matrice onto the floor and lay there while i try to gain the strength to get up. some how i do and i start getting ready by puttin skinny black jeans on from the floor a black escape the fate album tee and my rist bands. brush my super natrually straight black hair brush teeth and grab school bag before leaving. i pull out the ipod i stole from some goth kid and start listening to his music ... is actually not that bad. most of it is the music i listen to anyways.