Bitterly Sweet chapter 3

Chapter 3 1

I walked to class slightly regretting everything that I said it seemed to really freak him out. I didn’t have this problem at me last school because it was front page news everybody knew. I was never popular people and I just didn’t get on but after the crash everything changed suddenly no matter how angry I got I was always the weird girl who’s mum died in a car crash next to her. 2

After that my friends disowned me and my boyfriend said he was to busy to have a girl friend but I knew it meant he was to busy to defend or even try to be dating the weird girl. That night I cut more then I ever have before I cut until I passed out but unfortunately I didn’t die. My parents never seemed to notice when I changed maybe because my dad hated looking at me because I looked so much like my mother or maybe because I was the last to be with her and it was my fault she died. 3

As I walked into class I sat down and noticed a guy staring at me intensely.
“What the hell you know if you take a picture it would last longer.” I said a little rudely not really caring the whole class was talking and the teacher hadn’t come in yet.
“Yeah well I don’t have a camera sorry and I cant miss this opportunity your so beautiful but I’m sorry were is my manners I’m Jason it’s nice to meet you sorry we haven’t met sooner but I’ve been totally busy with soccer its hard being the captain”. The random dude said being sarcastic. I laughed lightly but was more interesting in the soccer remark.
“Yeah I would guess I really like soccer I’m kinda good too but I cant be bothered playing in a team”. I said not really caring. It was starting to get obvious that our teacher wasn’t going to show up so I started digging in my bag for my ipod and blank book. I pulled it out and started drawing a cover to my favourite bands albums.
“You are you serious maybe we can play sometime I’m always on the field at lunch with my friends if you think you can handle us then come along if not we love having a cheering squad.” He said testing me I knew I could handle them so I decide I would tomorrow at lunch. 4

As lunch came I packed my stuff and walked out of the class room. As I did I almost ran into Jake having my ipod in my ears.
“Um.. Hey you ready?”. He asked looking over me.
“Ready for what?”. I was slightly confused.
“Ready for lunch silly the canteen can sometimes be a jungle but don’t worry ill protect you”. He said slightly blushing. I giggled and nodded my head. We walked to the canteen in silence I caught him glimpse at me a few times and I smiled. 5

As we walked into the canteen I took one look and knew exactly what Jake meant everyone was in there own little group wether it be preps or jocks or nerds. I stuck closely to Jake knowing not to stand out other wise I would be picked on for the rest of the year. I hated the fact the people couldn’t just grow together its not as if there was that much difference between anyone of us. 6

As I got a bottle of water and no food Jake looked down at me disapprovingly but I just shook my head. I was never a big eater. I had always thought of myself as fat and larger then most girls. So during a few months at my last school I went anorexic then when people started to notice it was bulimic. I had hated myself completely. Now I try to stick to a strict vegetarian diet with food most days being different still hurt. We walked over to a far table at the back of the cafeteria sitting on a large round table. I instantly sat next to Jake with Matt on my right. I drank my water quietly not really listening to the conversation that was happening around me. I was more interested in what this school had to offer. So I stood up suddenly and walked away from the table with my ipod in my ears. 7

Doing things drastically was kinda one of my many talents. I love to surprise people and do the opposite of what everyone expects. Its like if anyone ever knows the real me I failed so I always try to keep people as far as possible. After my family and my ex boyfriend I never wanted anyone to get close to me again. 8

I started walking around the school when I came to a big notice board covered with many different coloured flyers. Some were for sports, tutoring, lost animals and belongings then I saw exactly what I was looking for. Choir. I had always loved to sing it had been a hobbies of mine since I was little enough to sing some lyrics. My last choir teacher had told me I was able to sing professionally but I had always hated to sand but in front of people by myself that’s why I loved the big groups at lest then I could do what I loved and not be scared. 9

I read over the poster and say that there was a meeting before school for anyone who was interested but an audition would be needed. So I started going through my ipod for ideas. After lunch I went to class having a free period I went to the library and got some books before heading home to practice and do homework. 10