Seeking (Chapter 1 Desirae -Somtimes)

SOMETIMES....1

The pain doesn't always hurt. To have that sweet red liquid ooze out from that fresh wound, feels good. I wonder what mom would think if she knew? Probably wouldn't pay much attention to it. She's never home much. I wake up every morning to the same thing, walk down stairs, mom sitting at the dinning table with coffee and a bagel as my nanny sets my breakfast down on the table in front of me. Why do I still have a nanny? I'm 15 years old, 16 in just half a year. I can take care of myself. At lest.... I think I can. Or maybe I'll come home so unhappy and find my sweet sharp love upstairs and go too deep? Leaving me to rot in my room alone. Whoa I'm off topic. So she sets breakfast down and then mom gets up and goes to work and I head off upstairs to get dressed then go to school. (sigh) School. I hate it.. It's always stressful. Yeah I do good. Straight A student(Woo Freaking do) with my head always in my books as everyone says. Everyone's a butthead too. They say things like "Oh looky looky little miss cookie in her books again." Or "Ew! Its Desirae, Better back away or she might get Alien Goo on you." and "Stupid friggin girl" or call me dumb and say that I'm not important. I don't know why but they think I'm from so weird plant because I'm different from everyone else. I only have one friend and it's Katie. I've known her since i was 9. Best Friend ever. Yeah she's great, but shes a lot more popular then me. I'm just a Plan Jane Girl with my head in the clouds, but my feet on the ground. I'm so bored right now, picking at my half eaten egg. Bleh I don't even like eggs really, they have an odd smell to them, like it was born moldy and old right from the chickens butt. Haha. Butt, why do I find that funny? I guess I'll find anything funny right now since I don't have a lot I think is funny. Most kids think other kids falling or farting out loud is funny, but I don't. I guess I'm.... Uhh.... Boring? and Oh crap! the bus is here already.