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My situation I had to deal with was losing someone I loved and deeply cared a lot about. It’s hard to go through that but after it happens you learn from the mistakes you made. Losing someone is the worst thing that can happen to you.2

In August of 2004, my boyfriend of nearly four months broke things off with me, ending our wonderful and near perfect relationship. Later on that day and continuing for a week, I would lay in bed while looking at my pictures of him, reading my poems and letters he had given me, and listened to songs that reminded me of him, and I cried while I did that, multiple times every day. I was in denial and could not believe he wasn’t with me anymore. One day five or so days later, I felt in a good mood after I had come home from work. I didn’t cry for him anymore. Emotionally, I wasn’t healed from the breakup but physically I was. It was not until six months or so later when I knew I was over him completely.3

Not a single day goes by when I don’t think of what I could have or should have done to save our relationship. Like if I had insisted me and him talk about it when he dumped me or before our relationship ended. If we were more honest and open with each other and had stronger communication then I would have known how he was feeling about me and our relationship. The way I handled it after we broke up wasn’t to great either. I was so focused on getting over him as fast as I could and didn’t give myself much time to grieve, heal and to think about the relationship. Most of all I wish I could rewind time to fix all the mistakes I made during and after the relationship. But just maybe it was just meant to happen and it was meant to be and then in that case, there would be nothing I could do about it.4

During that time, my ex boyfriend was the one that affected me the most and hindered me as time went on after we broke up. He was the one who loved me, spent time with me, he was the first one who I truly loved and he really showed me what love was. He also gave me my first broken heart. My family didn’t have much to say about the breakup but my friends were there for me and they knew what I was going through because they all pretty much had been in relationships and they had been in love before, like I was. It made the whole experience easier since I had people that I cared about by my side.5

Although, the experience was hard for me to deal with I made it and got through it thanks to my friends. Today I can say I am over that experience. Some times I think of him and all the memories and times we had as a couple but I learned a lot of things from my experience such as not to take love, or the person you love for granted. I also found out the hard way that you don’t know what you really had until it’s gone and taken away from you forever. I know now that the time and day will come when I will be presented with a new guy to love. Until that day comes, I know I’ll be waiting patiently and I know my next relationship will last longer than my last because I have matured, and I have grown into a more and stronger woman, both physically and emotionally. But also I know I won’t forget my first love, my first real and true boyfriend and he will always have a place in my heart because at one time, he loved me and cared about me. That’s something no matter what no one can ever take away.6