*No Title* Part 41

Kitty don’t do it. Derek isn’t worth it. I kept telling myself that over and over but it still didn’t change the way I felt. I cocked the spinny thing and was ready to pull it. 1

Wait Kitty don’t! I closed my eyes and saw my black tears running down and dropping on the cold white snow. 2

I pulled the trigger.3

I opened my eyes and saw my head didn’t have a hole in it... I could breathe... I saw no blood... I could see... I dropped the gun and gasped. It didn’t go off. I checked the bullets they were in there but why wouldn’t it go off? I pulled the bullets out so I wouldn’t shoot myself in the leg or stomach and shoved it in my jacket pocket. I pulled my hoodie on and walked back home trying not to cry in front of the people who watched me. I probably looked like crap. 4

The next day I awoke at 6 and took a hot shower, brushed my teeth, straightened my hair, did my makeup, and dressed in black tight pants and a Jeffree Star shirt. 5

I pulled on a My Chemical Romance hoodied sweater and walked to Eddy’s room. 6

“Do you want to walk to school together?” I asked7

“Sorry, Chris is actually going to pick me up.” 8

“...Chris as in football player Chris...?”9

She nodded.10

“Yeah we worked out our problems... he apologized.”11

“Whatever.” I said walking out and running down the stairs to outside. It was cold and I could see my breathe. It felt refreshing and nice to be outside and out of the stressful stuffy house. I pulled my Skeleanimals snow cap on and turned my ipod on Hollywood by Cute Is What We Aim For and walked to hell. 12

“Hey!” Derek said catching up to me. 13

His hair looked wet and he wore a Botdf shirt and tight black jeans. His snakebites were out and he still looked so dazzling like always. 14

I took my ear phones out. “Yeah?”15

“...Why didn’t you wait...?” He asked sounding hurt16

“You were taking to long... sorry...” I apologized 17

He pulled me into his arms. “Lets walk together... can we?” 18

I nodded. “Sure.”19

The science teacher let us out earlier than usual and I ended up going to Gym early. I wasn’t surprised to see if Derek and Katie were together so I waited in the bathroom for a while away from people. I stared at my cuts on my wrist they stung pretty bad and it hurt when I moved it. When I heard the bell ring I stood up and walked to P.E.20

Lucky me instead of P.E I was switched to Home Ec. I walked to the other building and saw Derek sitting at a table... and beside him was Katie... I showed the teacher my schedule change and she had me sit by Craig. “Hey.” He said21

“Hi.” I replied22

“You look nice today.” He complimented 23

I smiled “Thanks.” 24

“Partner up!” The teacher yelled to the class.25

“Want to be partners?” He asked26

“She already has one.” Derek said coming up from behind me and pulling me into his arms. “...Sorry.” I said looking at him and then back down. 27

While we were making pizza... at least I thought it was Derek turned to me. “Kitty.” 28

I looked at him. He held his arm up and on it was tomato sauce in lines that went down. He held the pizza cutter in his other arm. “I’m so emo.” He cried29

I smiled a half smile. 30

“Funny.” I murmured31

He came from behind me. “The supply closet is open.” He said32

He touched my chest and I turned around to knee him between the legs. 33

He groaned in pain. I continued to put pepperonis on the pizza. 34

***Katie’s P O to the V35

Derek came over unexpectedly after school. His mouth quickly went to mine as soon as I opened the door. He pushed me to the wall and touched my chest and struggled to pull my shirt off. “Listen. Chrisie, and Janet are here downstairs.” I said36

He smiled at me. “Let’s join them.” He said with a devious smile.