Obsessed-Chapter 10 Epilogue

As my hand brushed the cool metal of the gun, relief washed through me, and then out of the blue Alvin hit me with his gun, and I feel into nothingness....................................1

When I woke up it was to a nightmare.  I don't know how long I had been out, but my head was pounding, and I felt a warm liquid slide down my face, blood, I thought.  Alvin had been raping me the whole time I was unconscious, and I felt repulsed, and ashamed that I had ever loved him, and that I had ever loved and trusted Lisa.  I knew I had done wrong, but I didn't think I deserved this.  Stop it Vivian, don't think like that you have to stay strong.  I tried inching for the gun again.  Alvin was yelling at me.  "I want you bitch, I love you, I love you."  The more he talked the more Lisa seemed to be getting pissed off.  She was obviously turned on by what she saw, but pissed at the same time.  "That's enough Alvin, I want my turn!!"  He withdrew from me, and turned and backhanded her.  She fell to the floor, with a whimper.  He then kissed her.  "I'm sorry baby. Go ahead."  He then handed her his gun. And while they talked I gripped my gun, I wasn't going to let it go this time. "I'm sure you can handle yourself while I go and take a piss."  He left the room.  She stalked on high heels to the bed, her lingerie clashing with the whiteness of her skin, she looked beautiful, and I hated her, I was filled with rage, how could she do this to me?  She smiled at me and laughed.  The smile transformed  her whole face, she looked sinister, evil.  I inched my hand slowly away from the pillow, and she bent over me, her lips hovering above mines. "You know, I trusted you I loved you, I was even going to leave Alvin for you.  But his offer was so much sweeter.  You see I hated you too, and he offered me so much more than you ever could."  She licked my lips, and I shuddered, repulsed, afraid.  She laughed. "We've been heavily into heroine for years now."  I looked at her surprised.  She nodded. "Yes that's why the baby came out sick and skinny.  My daughter was a crack baby.  That's when I knew I had taken it too far, and I was going to check myself into a rehab, and try to fix my life, and that was all before I found out about the two of you, oh yes, that was before.  But things are different now, aren't they Vivian!!! I'm going to fuck you and then I'm going to kill you, you bitch."  She was about to hit me, and I shot her. It was automatic, I shot her, and she looked at me in surprise and fell to the floor. I shot her in her mid section, and she fainted. I stood up shaking, how long did I have before Alvin came back into the room? I threw on a pair of jogging pants and a sweater, and some sneakers. I thought I heard him coming.  I snuck out of the room, slowly trying to inch my way to the fuse box in my basement.  I went down the stairs quickly, my heart pounding in my ears.  He wasn't going to get me, he wasn't.  As I reached the basement, I heard him yell, no roar, and roar of outrage, I guess he found Lisa.  I flipped the switch and all the lights went out. The staircase I took only went down to the basement, and I didn't want to risk passing the bathroom, to go out the front door, and have Alvin catch me.  I slowly inched up the stairs again. It was deathly silent. My ears were cocked, listening, gun pointed in front of me. I reached the top of the stairs, and no sign of Alvin yet.  I glanced into my room, and Lisa was still on the floor, knocked out. And when I turned around, I was staring straight into Alvin's eyes. I held my breathe, Alvin had trouble seeing, and never wore his glasses, he didn't see me, he didn't fucking see me. I didn't dare to move, but I'd have to soon, or I'd pass out from holding my breathe.  I felt nauseous, I knew I had a concussion.  He walked away, and I let my breathe out, and I inched slowly pass the bathroom, I went down the stairs quickly to the living room and here's where I made my mistake. I cried out, running seemed to hurt me, I felt a searing pain down below and I knew Alvin tore something when he was raping me.  "Vivian!!!!!!" He came running after me, at least he didn't have a gun, I had Lisa's gun. I ran but he caught up and pulled my hair.  "Bitch." He slapped me, and I slapped him. "You asshole, I hate you, I hate you." He pushed me against the wall, we were both yelling, and I could hear sirens.  My head knocked against the wall, and I was about to black out again, I knew this time I would be dead, if I didn't do anything, and I'd never wake up again.  I aimed the gun at him, and shot him.  I began to slide away into nothingness again, and I shot him and kept shooting him, until I fell to the floor, and there was nothing.2

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I woke up in the hospital, apparently I had been there for a while because I was no longer in my jogging suit but in a hospital nightgown, my mother had fallen asleep in the chair, my god was I glad to see her. I had wires connected to me, and I didn't know why, who would need that for a concussion?  The doctor walked him, and he told me that I had been poisoned.  Apparently they had injected something into me when I was knocked out the first time, and that's what was going to knock me out the second time, not another concussion like I had first suspected.  My Mother woke up with a cry, and hugged me.  The doctor said that I had major tearing in my vaginal area, and I almost bleed to death, they stitched me up.  I had a concussion, a split bottom lip, my left eye was swollen shut and purple, and I had lost the baby I was carring.  But I was alive, I was alive.  A policeman came in and took down what I had to say. I told him what happened. I had been having an affair with Alvin. I told him how he became obsessed with me, how Lisa and I were trying to stay together, to stay strong.  And how they tricked me, how they raped me.  It was self defense, but I didn't know if I was off the hook.  Alvin was dead, he was barely recognizable when they found him.  I had apparently shot him in the face, and turned him into spaghetti, Jesus.  Lisa was alive. I shot her, and she was wounded but it wasn't fatal. A few days later, I found out that I was let off the hook as self defense, and I put a restraining order on Lisa.  She was up for trial, but until then she was free, her mother had bailed her out.  I was still in the hospital.  I had fell into a deep depression, and had tried to kill myself.  My Mother yelled at me.  "You are better than this Vivian Maire! Yes you went through hell, you went through hell and back, but you made it. You are alive, you are here, and I need you to stay, if God wanted you dead, he would have let them take you, but he didn't and you prevailed." I looked up at her, " I don't believe in God anymore Mom."    They put me on anti-depressants, and soon I was better.  A few weeks later I was released.  My Mom  had cleaned up everything in my house, and it was as if nothing had ever happened.  I put up the house for sale.  I didn't need a big house, it was only me, and it would always just be me.  I could never trust anyone again.  Slowly I tried to rebuild my life.  I felt no guilt over what I did to Alvin.  I hated him, and I knew I wouldn't get better until I stopped hating him.  I went back to school, and studied to become a cop.  Soon I left my retail job, and was a full time cop. I had a huge one bedroom apartment, and I started to be happy. I had to go to trial, I had a lawyer, and so did Lisa.  It wasn't a hard trial, and I was talking to Alex again, he was by my side often, and I loved him for it.  They had pictures of what was done to me, and she went behind bars, for 20 years.  Twenty years, for rape, for poisoning me, for attempted murder.  It wasn't enough, no it wasn't, she made my life hell, but when she got out I'd be ready, and if she ever came looking for me, she was dead..........................Fin..........................4