Painful Memory Chapter One

"Roxie! Get your butt over here!" Hayner called. I hate it when he does that. He just acts like I am a dog, following his command. But, just like every other time, I got up from my spot on the ground and walked over to him. He smiled, happy for a second, then punched me.
Crap, Hayner! Why did you do that?" I asked, holding my arm. That really hurt... "You were supposed to meet us 20 minutes ago, Roxie." that is something he always does too. He just made that my name. Even when he is sitting on top of me, punching me until i am bleeding, he stilll calls me roxie. And nothing i do can change it. Even though, believe me, I have tried.
"Oh, right." I said. Why do I always do that? Hayner is the first I notice, and I say the most idiotic stuff too him! god, I'm an idiot. Finally, I noticed Olette peek out from behind Hayner. She always seemed to be right beside him. I wonder if they were together? What was the difference to me? It is there life.
"- could have Roxas pay!" Olette giggled. I really hate it when she does that. Oh, wait. What? I am paying for what? Say it out loud, Roxas.
"Umm... I'm paying for what?" I scratched my head, confuzed. Something about being near these guys does that too you.
"Have you been out? We are talking about going up on the tower. For our game. You could pay for the ice cream." Oh. Ice ceam. But...
"We have a game?"
Hayner rolled his eyes. "Yes, Roxas. We do. But I guess you get a surprise, since you dont want to listen. Now, where's your wallet?"
Autamaticaly, I answered. "Back left pocket, why?"
Hayner walked behind me. "Just wondering which side to gaurd from Olette." Then he reached into my pocket. I jumped about 5 feet in the air, making a very manly sound. I swear I heard Olette giggle again. "God, Roxie. What is your problem?" He asked, holding up my black and white checked wallet. "What are you afraid of?"
"N-nothing. Lets get going." While we were walking through Twilight Town, I wondered what I really was afraid of. He had practicaly warned me. But I still jumped. And even after we had been walking for ten minutes, I was lagging behind and my heart was still beating heavily. Or is it hard?
My thoughts were interupted when I hit a solid wall of camo. I stumbled back, and fell flat on my... butt."Roxie!" Hayner yelled. He sounded like he was tired of this. I was too. At least I knew what the wall of camo was now... Hayner's chest.. oh god. His chest.
"Umm... did I hurt you?" I asked, finaly looking up. Hayner was doubled over. Oh crap.Wait, he was laughing!
"Did you hurt me? I should ask you. Look at your face, dude." My face? How was I supposed to do-
"Roxas? What happened?" Olette asked, running to get to where Hayner had stopped to drag me with them.She had kept walking. Willing to bet she never noticed.
"what do you mean? I'm fine. Lets g-" I had managed to get that much out before Olette was right in front of me, shoving some cloth in my face. I pushed it and her away. "What the hell Lett?"
"Y-your nose." She is stuttering. Did I scare her? She said nose...
I automaticaly reached up and felt my nose for any breaks or anything. When I pulled back down, it had quite a bit if blood on it. Olette was ramming the cloth into my face again, and I wondered why I did so much automaticaly. It was like all of this was just some fake little life. Just get through it and you can leave, who cares if you enjoy it. But if that were true, I would have to have some memory of something...1

a black cloak. It is a little snug, but its the uniform.
"We look like freaks, _____."
"No, we dont. We look like the friggen kings of the world. Er, and the queens too." He always says that. Anything to make me happy. It is almost funny. After all that happened, he still-2

"Roxie! Roxie! crap! Maybe he did hit me too hard." What? What happened. My head. Wait, why cant I open my eyes?!
"H-h ay n er?" I asked, every sound difficult and slicing through my head. I was on the ground. In some ones lap. They were shaking me... and they stopped.
"Roxie? Thank god. You just collapsed. Is your head ok now?" How did he know about that? Okay, Roxas, open. your. eye. easy... easy.... Oh, hell! that hurt!
Hayner is leaning over me. As soon as I opened my eyes, he smiled. I, on the other hand, grimaced. Everything was too bright. And he looked too relived. He already had my wallet. Why did he need me now?
Ok, now talk.
"What, happened?" good. getting easier. Wait, I was in Hayners lap! Isnt it the girl that usually comforts the injured guy?
"I dont really know. You rammed into me, Lett got the blood off your nose, we started walking, and you said something about your head. Then you collapsed. Did I do that?"
I wish I knew. What was that? That guy... I knew him. But I had been here forever... Why was it so painful to, to remember. Wait, I wasnt remembering anything! That had never happened! Wait, Hayner is waiting for an answer.
"No you did not. Your friggen personal trainer did, buffing you up too much." I said, laughing. I started to fet up, but Hayner pulled me back down.
"Roxas." Oh hell. My real name. Is he going to kick my butt??? " this is serious. You need to go see a doctor about what happened. Dont just laugh it off, ok? You have to be ready for the struggle tournament tomorow. Olette wanted to go get a doctor right now, but instead she and Pence went to her gouse to get her dad. But promise you are going to fo see a real doctor." When did he get so serious?
"umm... ok." I said, getting up. But as soon as I had gotten on one kknee, I got off balance and fell. Just my side this time. "God, Roxie. Stay." Hayner told me when I tried to get up again. He moved behind me and...
I yelled as my body left the ground. Hayner could pick me up that easily? Since when? Probably since I had stopped eating breakfast... and lunch... and sometimes dinner. But who needs it when you hang out with there guys?
"Roxas. Chill. You weigh less than Olette, I wont have a problem holding you up." He seemed so... calm about this. But we were in the middle of a..... street with no people. ok, fair enough. Wait, was that an insult? In Hayner talk, anything is...
"I do not weigh less than Olette." I mean, I had to weigh at least a little more! Right?
"Roxas, you really do. Do you even eat?"
"Of course I do. You see me eat with you guys all the time!"
"Real food. At home." How does he always do that?
"Uhh..." Niiice Roxas. Real nice.
"Okay, come on." Hayner said, as if he really needed to. I was still in his... arms. And we were going to where? "You are going to eat. Then we are ging to compare yours and Olettes weight." He said as he pulled out his cell phone, holdiing me with one arm. I squeked, yes squeked... and threw my arms around his neck. "And... send." He mumbled under his breath, finaly putting his other arm under me again. I did not like it, I just did not want to fall...
"Ah" I almost mumbled as he started rubbing my back. How does he do that? He is carrying me and rubs my back... is he trying to get me to fall asleep? Well... it is working...
"If you don' t want me to fall asleep, I suggest you stop doing that." Did I just admit that? Nerd...
Hayner laughed. I could feel the vibration in his chest, and I nuzzled a little closer to it.
"... or that.."
Again a laugh. "It will be easier to carry you through the streets." He was still rubbing my back... Than he started humming. I knew the song. Every one in our school had the CD. But it sounded much better when he sang it. I could feel the music... he was almost swaying me back and forth, but i knew that was just how he walked. I was almost asleep and I recegnized my favorite part of the song. "Simple and Clean is the way that your... making.. me.. fell tobight..." I yawned, and went back to falling asleep. So much for singing along...3


What is that? Why the hell is Hayner poking my head? It friggen hurts!
"Stop it, Hayner.I liked it better when your arms were full." Ok, that was useless. most of the words were slurred. I think...
"Well, he is waking up... I can question him in a few moments." So Olettes dad was poking my head... what purpose did that serve?? 4

I have to keep running. Just have to warn ____. He has to stay safe. He thought this was going to be a vacation... it cant be, not while we live here. not when we are what we are...5

"Ah!" I bolted uprught, almost knocking some one in the head. "I have to warn him.. I have too" They were going to kill him. Why would they do that? They were going to kill.. me.
"Roxas... its ok. I got you to my house, remember? It was, like, a bad dream, dude." Hayner sat down on the couch beside me and offered me a tissue. I had not even relized I was crying. Crap! Point for Hayner again! I'm going to have to total them up for today... he has at least 5...
"Uhh..." I said. out loud this time. I turned away from most of the guys, but found Dr. Lou, Olettes dad, staring at me.
"Bad dream, young man?" Wow. Thank you captain obv- well...
"I don't really know..." again, ADMITTING IT. Just shut up Roxas!
Lou hummed a few times and turned my head back around. he poked my head with a metal thing... i only know it was hard and cold, so i am guessing metal. Then he checked my nose... for something... and listened to my heart beat.
"Slightly accelerated, but that could be caused by the... dream or" he laughed... which actually scared me.." Ecxitment." looking down, I relized that Hayner was still right beside me. And his hand was on mine. I carefully pulled my hand away, and the doc left.
Hayner stood up, thankfully not seeming to notice the hand thing. "I am making real food to shove down roxies throat. Anybody want some?" Pence raised his hand. No surprise there. I really like the dude. But he is predictable. He could eat a million raman packages every day. I rarely eat two. A week. Wait, shove down my throat? Why does it take me so long to notice this?
"What if Roxie does not want food?"
"Then Hayner will drag his anorexic butt into the dining room and shove the food down his throat, as stated previously." Damn. Point for Hayner. That makes.. 1, 2, 4, 12. Hayner has 12 points. I have none. Damn.
"umm.. RoxAS might take a little." I said, making sure to prounounce the second half of my name louder. That always annoys Hayner. Point for me! But he also gets a point.... 13-1....
As soon as he left, Olette sat in my lap. ok... maybe she was a little heavier... OW. I must have made an actual sound, because she guiltily went to the other half of the expensive leather couch.
"Oh, god Roxas, I am SO sorry! I did not know! I promise I wont do it again!" How fast can she talk?
"Olette. Stop." finaly... "Not your fault. Hayner did not think I was lighter than you either till he picked me up" It really is kinda funny now.
"You are? Oh my god roxas, you really DO need food! Im going to go help Hayner..." She walked out of the room, mumbling something about a crash diet...
" What the hell?"I asked Pence, the only person still in here. It kinda hurt to turn my head toward him, but I kept doing it.
"She thought that you were weak from whatever is wrong with you. She had no idea of your weight. That surprised her. She cares about you. About all of us. And that worries her. And a crash diet is something where people dont eat for a while. We all know you do it. At least, a little. Except Hayner that is. But by the way he is acting I guess he knows now."
I looked across the fancy living room into the pure white kitchen, where Hayner and Olette where making some... thing. I think it was supposed to be goulash. But it was black... and orange. God, I was going to be forced to eat that?
Olette was setting the table with some paper plates. You would think with a place this expensive, they would have something other than paper plates! I mean, they had 3 maids, 4 stories, 6 bathrooms.. full of course, 7 bedrooms, 2 kitchens, a friggen penthouse attic, and god knows what else! I have been coming here for 3 years and I still got lost sometiimes!
"Roxas, are you going to walk to the table or do I need to carry you?" I hate it when he does that. I can't tell if he is sincere or laughing his butt off.
"That depends." oh crap. stop talking now. " Are you going to be humming again?" you kept talking.
I kinda paled. how could i say that? That was like, flirting. with hayner. hayner. I was sitting up when for the second time that day... you guessed it... my body left the ground.
"Ah!" Again with the squeking.What is with me and squeking?
"No humming this time. But you really are light Roxas." I could hear the smile. And that worried me.
hell!, he was going to drop me!! " Hey Pence, come here." no. no. no. he is not seriously going to do that! "Roxas is getting heavy... will you take him while I go get some forks?" liar. forks are on the table. you just want to hear me squek agin.
"I'm not sure I can..."Pence started. I was taller than him. that would make it a bit akward. Plus, he was not the strongest guy around.
"Umm... I can walk you know. I was joking about...that. Just set me down."
"10 minutes ago you were passed out." aaannnddd?? "here Pence"
I was dropped, and Pence, i am guessing, caught me. I dont know, because I was screaming, with my eyes shut tight. As soon as I could figure out which direction a neck was, I grabbed it and was poked with... BOOBS??? Olette caught me???
"Ow, Roxas!" She yelled as I crashed into her arms... it was Hayners fault. He raised me higher before dropping me. She dropped me, and this time I just yelped when i hit the ground. I got up too fast, making myself way dizzy, and just walked to the kitchen. I slid into the closest chair, and wondered just how stupid my friends were. I could walk. I did not need to be carried around every where.
Then I noticed something I never did before. There was a smell of licorice just behind me, meaning that was where Hayner was. He was trying to sneak up behind me..
I turned around. And flashed a huge smile, right before a huge forkful of food was shoved down my throat. He literally was going to do that! Oh my god!
After choking and managing to swallow it, and glare at Hayner. It did not really work though. He is the one person
i cant glare at.
And, as usual, Hayner smiled. He put the plate in fromt of me and sat across from me.Olette and Hayner sat on my other sides. And they just stared. At me.
"You going to eat or do I need to go back over there?" What the hell?6

Why does she keep cooking? You know that she is the most horrible cook of all time. We were on the tower. With ice cream... Because, She likes you and wants to impress you. he told me. What? ____ likes me? Why? How?7

"Ah!" I yelled, holding my head in my hands. "Stop it!" I jumped up from the table, knocking into it, and ran deeper into the house. I could hear only one set of footsteps coming after me, and the smell of licorice.