Once again I felt this feeling... you were all watching my every move. Anylizing me. Your eyes burn wholes in my heart and my soul is already hollow. I hate the way you stare, I hate the way you smile, faking it obviously. Pretend you are a nice person but have yuo noticed you are ruining my life? Have you noticed the tears burning in my eyes and the wyay I plaster this smile on my face, don't you jsut love this mask? This mask I wear every single fucking day?! God I hate you. If I cover ym body, wearing hoodies and baggy clothes you say I'm fat and if I wear anything else you say I am a slut. What the fuck?! Where do you get this shit from? I don't even knwo you adn you definately do nnot know me. Have some fucking decency!!! 1
I walked home and heard the names you called me. Deliberately saying them loudly enough for me to hear. Whren I got home I slit my wrist open. The blood trickled into the palm of my hand as from my elbow down numbed. There was a lot of blood and at first I thouht it wouldn't stop. 2
Suddenly there came a knock at my door and I slip something over me so my blood went unseen. 3
I walked and openly it quckly. Greeting this girl with a smiling face I aks what's up. Well this is hwo he decided to break up with me, using a girl I have secretly grown to hate. Oh well. I walked back in, decided it was for the best and continued with my wrist. More blood, more pain, more digging. The pain was excruiating...but... it wasn't physical.4
You're mean words I had endured too long and a tear rolled down my cheek. I wanted to just go to sleep, never wanted to wake up.5
But I pulled myself togethe rnad got out of this place. I went to a freind who I knew wouldn havea smiling face. 6
And now I am okay..or so it seems. And saddly it appears, I will live through another day.7
I love that its the weekend and you are all far from sight. No more need to worry, no more pain deep inside. Or at least not til Monday...8
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u cut today. no more cassie. i don care ne more. its not fair for u to do this to me!!!!!!
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