Reality

Ever have those days where you just don't want to wake up? What about those sleepless nights where you toss and turn begging for relief...just sleep...you tell yourself over and over again but your mind doesn't stop screaming long enough for the silence to set in...1

Silence...? 2

What is silence? 3

Your body aches for a touch but of course is never satisfied. The one touch that it longs for will never come and your heart knows it is gone. Your soul knows it is lost...You scream because you want yourself back? Right? You do after all want that happy care free side of yourself back...don't you? Happiness doesn't last forever. Does it? Its just a myth told to you by someone that doesn't want you to feel the misery they have known. 4

You think to yourself...oh wow..I'm so lucky..then the next thing you know you're sitting there starring at your life watching everything explode. watching everything fall apart...You want to reach out and stop it but everything falls through your hands as if you are a ghost...a shadow in your own life. Powerless to stop the pain. Powerless to stop the chaos. 5

Chaos? 6

Chaos you wonder...what does it mean? Chaos is reality. The reality that they hide from you because they don't want you to panick. No one likes to handle people when they panick. Panicking people are dangerous...crazy...so...they lie. They tell you everything is fine and they smile. The whole time you know they are full of shit. You can see the worry in their eyes as you turn away. 7

Love...ha! Love...I have nothing to say. The hole in my chest eats at my very existence as if it were fungi eating at a dead corpse. 8