I can remember being impressed. For the first time in a long time I had my own room.
1Now this might sound funny to you all but sharing with a step-sister then brothers is no where or way for a teen girl to live.
2Any privacy I had in the past was in the restroom, that's it.
3Then though the boys would barge in without knocking if I didn't lock .
4New Hammond Heights was a nice neighborhood, and I was surrounded by kids my age.
5I should have been happy but like most in teens I was scared I wouldn't fit in.
6Then I met Shawna Grigsby.
7She was a skinny mouthy little thing, lots of black eye liner and she adored metal music.
8Oh my Mom had fits when she saw her. But I loved knowing she couldn't control me cause, hey
9she was at work.
10Of course I smoked like a big idiot, as did Shawna and most of the kids I would end up meeting that summer.
11I come from a country background so their taste in music threw me for a loop but hey Metallica grows on you.
12I met the boy I would crush on for a long time at what they call the Teen Center.
13The great thing about that place besides pool tables, and a jukebox was we could listen to Jammers ( Kids who actually had some kinda talent and weren't afraid to show it).
14And the ladies that ran the place turned a blind eye to our smoking, as long as we took it across the street to the field.
15I spent so many hours laying in that field with my friends.
16People like me who hated their lives!
17 Funny waking up looking forward to something was a strange emotion for me, but I lived for Gator coming home from work and telling me hit the road Girly.
18I learned that I can't shoot pool, but I could sing. They liked that and many times would ask me to while we watched the stars.
19My fondest memories in life are of that time period.
20Belonging to someone else not just your family and being important made me whole.
21And then what happens to shatter a young girl?
22She falls in love.
23I saw Joe with this blond blue eyed boy named ironically Trey.
24Total opposites, but best friends, one night out of the blue they appeared at the Center and
25most of the girls ran up to Trey.
26Not me.
27I was looking at the boy with dark hair and brown eyes.
28And what happened? I was invisible least to him.
29Till we started the first day of school and Mandy who was a girl who fooled around with Trey sat down next to Shawna and I at lunch.
30I knew of course what was going to happen, Trey and Joe would eventually end up at our table.
31When they sat down my tongue froze to the roof of my mouth and Shawna was kicking me like mad under it.
32Grinning because for once in my life I couldn't talk. Just stare.
33He spoke to me and I casually said Hi.
34From then on it was I love Joe all over my diary, how silly yet innocent I was.
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your curious big bro! 
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