Stalking Is Different Than Love

“Looking deeply into his eyes, his face came closer. My breath left me, and the door bursted open. My boyfriend James glared into what seemed to be my soul and out of nowhere a gun shot went off in the air. James’s eyes rolled back into his head and I looked at the guy holding the gun. Watching James fall to his knees, I did want any girl would do. I screamed…” I spoke.1

“Then what happened Star?” The therapist asked me.2

“Then I wake up.” I simply whisper.3

“So who is this other guy?” She asked.4

I shrugged.5

“I can’t remember.” I lied. Of course I remember. James’s brother Jacob tried to rape me but I refused to give in then James’s came in and thought the wrong thing. Jacob didn’t know what to do, so he shot James. Jacob was caught and put in jail but is being let out in an hour or so. It’s been four years since this happened, since James died. My heart jumped at the thought of Jacob being let out. Idiot me didn’t get a restraining order on him because I am way nice, plus it’s going to be hard when we are in the same college.6

“Ms. Nultemeier?” Mrs. Jones/ therapist called to me.7

“Sorry what did you say?” I answered back.8

“Our time is up, but I want to see you next week okay?”9

I nodded and left the room, and left that forsaken place. Ms Nultemeier she called me. I hated when people called me by my last name. I am Mrs. Moore in my mind, in my world. Well I want to be. James’s wife. I sighed. Dreams won’t do any good; night mares just try to make you relive bad memories over and over again. Quickly but safely I drove home. I unlocked my house door and entered my dark creepy house. The TV was on; I left it off before I left. I stopped in my tracks and breathed slowly.10

“WELCOME HOME!” Cheered my family and so called friends.11

I let out a fake laugh. I have been in a mental hospital since last year because they believed I went crazy, because I kept saying I saw James. I saw him only because I wanted to see him. My mind played tricks on me to keep me happy. From what I know, it stopped. But this is only my first day out of that place, so I’ll have to see.12

“Wow guys! You really did this all for me!?” I pretended to be happy, like I cared.13

“Yes Sweet heart, we love you and glad your home!” Mother smiled but can tell she didn’t want me. I knew she didn’t know how to take care of me anymore.14

“Yes, aren’t we all happy to see your fake smile Star?” A voice snickered.15

They all turned to see who it was, but I knew that voice anywhere. I spent four years in pain because of him.16

“Hello Jacob.” I whispered, turning to his unwanted face. His hair long and black, his eyes green and his smiled crooked. I shuddered.17

“How are you Star? How was the sick minds hospital for the crazies?” Jacob laughed.18

“I’m doing just fine, the insane asylum helped a lot. Just what I needed. How was Jail?” I smirked. I wasn’t going to let him win.19

He snarled. I snickered.20

“What the heck are you doing here?” I finally snapped.21

“What can’t one friend stop by and say hello to another friend?” he asked, looking taken back.22

“You’re not my friend. You killed James. I can never forgive you!” I snarled.23

He laughed. LAUGHED! That insensitive jerk!24

“Get out.” I whispered in anger.25

“What did you say?” Jacob smirked.26

“GET OUT!” I screamed, rage boiling in my blood. He blinked in shock then smiled.27

“Fine but I’ll see you around. Won’t be the last time I see your face again.” He smirked. Then he pulled me in, pressing his lips to mine. I shoved him away. “Or kiss those pretty little lips of yours.” He smiled.28

I gave him a disgusted look and he was gone. For now. I glared at my family. They just stood there. Did nothing to stop him.29

“Now dear listen to me…” My mother started. I didn’t want to hear it.30

“SHUT UP! Just leave me alone! I hate you all!” I yelled. Without another word or look, I ran up the stairs to my room and locked the door behind me. I listen to them always, thinking that they were right. That they could help me. I was wrong. Totally wrong. Tears ran down my face.31

“Poor poor Star. Can’t do anything right.” Laughed Jacob.32

“I thought I told you to get out!” I snarled. He laughed.33

I gave up. Falling to my knees, hoping he’ll just kill me.34

“You sent me to Jail for four years and expect me to get out of your life? Then you got another thing coming. Your going to be miserable when I’m done with you.” He declared.35

“You’re an idiot. Look around, I’m already in the worst pain possible. I’m at the worst level of depression. Can’t you tell my life sucks? And it’s all because of you Jacob!” I cried out.36

“Bull. You put this on yourself.” He yelled right back.37

My eyes flamed with anger. “You’re the reason! YOU! YOU! YOU!” I yelled again. “If you didn’t stalk me that night you saw me at the park, then none of this would have happened!” I cried again.38

“It wasn’t stalking, it was love!” He snarled.39

“Stalking is different than love Jacob. Love was like me and James. Love isn’t some obsession.” I snarled right back.40

“He stole you from me!” Jacob screamed. I blinked in shock.41

“He stole you from me, He knew I loved you. I loved you first and he used you to get on my nerves and to get to your best friend Ashley. All along you were the one obsessed with him Star! Her! Not you!” He explained, tears now flooding down his eyes.42

Sobs escaping my lips. “No…he loved me! I know he did!” I screamed with mush pain in my voice.43

“No Star. He didn’t. I do. I was there for you and I still am. And always will be.” Jacob whispered, now holding me close.44

I shook my head, not wanting to believe it. My fists slamming into his chest lightly. His hand petting my hair. Finally I wrapped my arms around his waist. Tears raining out.45

“I love you Star.” He whispered.46

“I love you too Jacob.” 47

I finally whispered back. For once the words sound real, a crazy tingle on my tongue and lips. It felt right. It felt like love….48

THE END49

S.A.Nultemeier ©